Never Free..
So today actually in school i was in a better mood..and i didnt get that much sleep last night...went into art kind of wondering..and he came in grabbed a chair and sat with me:) and he was dipping..so he had a cup he was spitting in..doesnt bother me...kind of hott..in a weird way.. ahha...he was listening to joe's player thingy and then he gave me the one ear thing so i listened to it with him...he came in and rubbed my shoulder..but i still dont know what is going on...so i got online and i was talking to jane and i gave her his sn to see if he was on and he was only he was somewhere so apparently ive been blocked..? So can anyone tell me whats going on....cause i cant..ive done something that i regret now...i need to know...i cant even like describe what im feeling right now..im hurt...but i feel good..i keep making excuses for him...and shit...because i like him so much..and i want to be happy..and i want him..and i try to talk to him but everytime i try i just cant get it out...i just dont know what to do with myself....i think that im going to force myself to do it tomorrow...just be like we need to talk and just tell him like it is...no planning out..just tell him..thats the idea..yeah we'll see