never knew love hurt this much....
Dear journal,
I havent been here in a long while, but i really gatta talk to someone... Well, i have been with daniel, and it has been great... we have only been together for only around 1 1/2 months, but everything has been pretty good... well... this weekend, my parents were outta town... I thought it would be great cuz i get to spend some time with him and all... but then he tells me his sis and some of her co workers are coming down for some hair expo or something,,, they are hair stylists... but its ok... that doesnt really bother me... he says he wants me to come with so i do... there is his sis and 3 other girls.... Two of them look really good, which kinda made me feel really intimidated...
Then two more of his friends came over... I am the yongest one and feel really outta place... So i told him that i was just gunna leave and get some of my homework done... I was thinking that maybe i could see him today if i didnt have everything left to do... Well, i leave and he goes to the liquor store..again.... I get a call from my grandpa bitching at me for like a half hour... He was yelling at me because obviously it was muy fault that me and my stupid dumb ass sis were fighting... I am the one who watched and took care of the dogs, i am the one who took care of everything, i am the one who cleaned the fucking house..and i am gwtting bitched at??? i fucking lost it... i called daniel and told him i was leaving, but i didn't know where so i got a hold of my girl katrina and she told me to come over... i stoped at daniels cuz it wason the way... he gave me some booze and wished me a happy joyage but said he waould call me to check up on me...
I was balling all the way to katrinas... I couldnt take it... well, as i was doing my homework all night, i had the phone by me... hoing for my love to call me and make sure i was ok... comes midnight and no call... so i decide to go home... i call him on my way home and he was so fucking frunk he couldnt even talk.... he was screaming at someone in the car so i got mad after listening to him for like 5 mins, i hung up.... I hoped he would have texted me or called back, but nothing.... At the time i needed him most, he couldn't take 1 minute outta his drinking time to call me... his love. hos angel... well, his angel almost crashed a couple times last night, and now.... i kinda wish i would have.... I never knew someone could make someone feel this way... but i guess i am pretty damn stronger than i thought to make it home after drinking.... and just not giving up, even after the love of my life let me down....
I dont know what to do... every time i even think of last night, i just feel like crying... i cant believe he would do that to me.... It just hurts me to think..... to think..... It just hurts.... Now, i don't know what to think about him.... Please, anyone who reads this, please help me.... I need to know what to think, what to do.... Just any in put it greatly appreciated.... thank you....
I havent been here in a long while, but i really gatta talk to someone... Well, i have been with daniel, and it has been great... we have only been together for only around 1 1/2 months, but everything has been pretty good... well... this weekend, my parents were outta town... I thought it would be great cuz i get to spend some time with him and all... but then he tells me his sis and some of her co workers are coming down for some hair expo or something,,, they are hair stylists... but its ok... that doesnt really bother me... he says he wants me to come with so i do... there is his sis and 3 other girls.... Two of them look really good, which kinda made me feel really intimidated...
Then two more of his friends came over... I am the yongest one and feel really outta place... So i told him that i was just gunna leave and get some of my homework done... I was thinking that maybe i could see him today if i didnt have everything left to do... Well, i leave and he goes to the liquor store..again.... I get a call from my grandpa bitching at me for like a half hour... He was yelling at me because obviously it was muy fault that me and my stupid dumb ass sis were fighting... I am the one who watched and took care of the dogs, i am the one who took care of everything, i am the one who cleaned the fucking house..and i am gwtting bitched at??? i fucking lost it... i called daniel and told him i was leaving, but i didn't know where so i got a hold of my girl katrina and she told me to come over... i stoped at daniels cuz it wason the way... he gave me some booze and wished me a happy joyage but said he waould call me to check up on me...
I was balling all the way to katrinas... I couldnt take it... well, as i was doing my homework all night, i had the phone by me... hoing for my love to call me and make sure i was ok... comes midnight and no call... so i decide to go home... i call him on my way home and he was so fucking frunk he couldnt even talk.... he was screaming at someone in the car so i got mad after listening to him for like 5 mins, i hung up.... I hoped he would have texted me or called back, but nothing.... At the time i needed him most, he couldn't take 1 minute outta his drinking time to call me... his love. hos angel... well, his angel almost crashed a couple times last night, and now.... i kinda wish i would have.... I never knew someone could make someone feel this way... but i guess i am pretty damn stronger than i thought to make it home after drinking.... and just not giving up, even after the love of my life let me down....
I dont know what to do... every time i even think of last night, i just feel like crying... i cant believe he would do that to me.... It just hurts me to think..... to think..... It just hurts.... Now, i don't know what to think about him.... Please, anyone who reads this, please help me.... I need to know what to think, what to do.... Just any in put it greatly appreciated.... thank you....