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forever a moment of memories to block the memories.
i'm heading for a downfall. slowy so surely. i have a new thoery...one that makes more sence...that...the nice guy does finish last...if he finishes at all. he's no attraction...just an object to be recognized as matter...that doesn't matter. i feel alone alot. mentally, phisically, and whatever else could fit in that category. it's as if i'm constanly put in second place, if in the rankings at all...she confuses the fuck out of me, i doubt it would work...a week isn't a long time i realized...
it was said that medusa was a beautiful woman before she was turned into the horrid creature she became...and that she was probly the most beautiful woman on earth...but was she really beautiful? was she as beautiful on the inside as she was on the outside?...hmm i wonder.
i was the fool...i can't help but think about it. what did i see? i saw right through...into nothing. i played myself...the fuckin joker...the deck is empty...cut and dealed.
I WANT IT TO END.
scream to hell...
would it be bold to release certain interest for a person on this thing?
probly... haha she'd hate me. just like the rest!
complete.
i can hate myself forever...i can be confused for a lifetime...make it better...i want her bad...i got it bad...do you want me like i want you? you know who you are...