ending journal. I've had a good run with this one. I'm not going to delete it just yet. IM me if you want my new journal name I guess. whatever. bye.

I'm reading a book on creativity and such. It's pretty good actually.

There's another book that I'm reading too, it's aboot cutting. I found it interesting since I used to be one and things. Yeah. It's also a good book.

It's time for a change in my life. I'm not sure exactly where to start or where to go with it, but something needs to

I'm going back to the gym tomorrow.

I'm so pissed off right now I could kill someone, and I don't even know why.
I feel alone. blah.
I need to make some changes. I need to figure out what I want from my life and start working towards it instead of sinking lower in this hole. Good god.

I have a lot of things on my mind. A lot of things to do. I need to lose more weight because I don't feel like myself right now. blah.
I keep telling myself I'm moving on to bigger and better things, but I am not really sure. I need to get myself together. shit.

So I'm thinking I need to get a job. Yeah ( Read more... )

My father hit me today in the parking lot of Guitar Center. Two People almost called the cops or something. My mom sat there and defended him while he hit me at least three times. Once for everytime I called him a fucker. I did get a hit in, which was nice, because it was a hell of a bitchslap. Fuck that piece of shit. I refused to ride with ( Read more... )

I tried to believe that the good in everyone overcomes the bad..but that simply isn't true. I have learned that the hard way.
There may be some good in everyone, but that by no means implies that it outweighs the bad.
Therefore, I'm going to stop being nice. I'm going to be the asshole that I was born to be. This should be fun.

I got a haircut today. Ugh. They fucked up my hair. I was supposed to get my mohawk back right? But they buzzed the back completely. Now it's a semihawk. WTF. Now I have to wait another couple of months while the back grows out again. STUPID PEOPLE ( Read more... )

So it's pretty much final. I'm graduating. I'm excited, but at the same time I'm nervous. This door leads to a whole other aspect of life ( Read more... )

I've never been this hurt before. I've never been this angry before, still.
She lied to me for A FUCKING YEAR. And I fell for it. I am an idiot.