Fuck the world. I'm an unhappy minky

[spikespiegel69]

W00t! Today was...okay...mediocre...I guess...maybe. Pretty uneventful until around 8:30. My stupid dumbfuck friends decided to come up with some last minute planning because they wanted to see Bruce Allmighty that fucking moment. I was mad because I couldn't get a ride because my parents weren't home. I eventually got Annie's dad to take me. Yay. fucking great...not. I shouldn't have fucking gone. The movie was decent. I guess. The theater was packed, had to sit in the front row and strain my eyes. It was funny. haha. had a good time...until it was over. went outside. dad was glaring at me. I fucked up. thanks a lot guys. this is where poor planning gets you. so dad yells at me. makes me feel like the pitiful waste of flesh I fucking am. i try to apologize. tell him i fucked up. i started crying. stewed in my own juices. thought about how i fuck everything up. i suck royal major ass at everything that society demands from me. i'm a fucking selfish pansy. yeah, maybe i have some fucking self confidence issues. so what. i've been made to feel this way goddamnit...all my life as a child i was made fun of and i can't seem to get out of that. fucking yay me. i'm a fucking basketcase. god....sorry guys. i'm sorry for making you see this side of me, but...it happens. all the time i mask my emotions. make people think i'm a happy-go-lucky kind of guy. ha. i wish.

Or that's what my post would have been a couple of seconds ago while I was writing it. Mom just came in and made me feel a little bit better, I guess. Now I'm just kind of...blah. I've been in a bad mood for no reason lately, and I'm sorry for coming down on you guys...I dunno...I guess...I just never come down on ANYONE, so every once in a while I just have to let it out. I think I've reached my breaking point recently and I'm tired of putting on that facade...I just don't fucking know any more. Well, I'm gonna leave before I start scaring away the people that mean the most to me. Sorry guys.