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Ugh, I’ve had such a frustrating week, I need to vent a bit. No need to feel you have to comment unless you want to.
Ok, started out with my ex texting me @ 3am, saying he’s in some trouble and needs to leave town. Could he come to my place in a different city nearby and lay low. I say yes. It’s what I’d do for ANY of my friends. So a few hours later he’s there. He tells me that he helped a gal friend of his terminate her pregnancy, only to later find out who the father is --- a gang lord who’s not happy she got an abortion. And who got his name out of her. He also happens to know my ex on a passing-by-acquaintance level. So he stays Sunday through wed; has a few job interviews I helped set up for him that don’t pan out. Leaves wed b/c he’d been in contact with a go-to guy, who said that the gang man pretty much just stole all his electronics (almost $3k worth in tv’s, game systems, etc) as ‘payment’. So since my ex has more job leads to follow up in his city and can’t wait to leave and ‘get on with his life’ and all other sorts of bullshit… he takes off. I offer him to stay and stay safe, and finally money for gas. All of which he refuses. He leaves. I’m a bit worried and sad, but not the end of the world.
Yesterday at work he texts me: “should have taken that gas money I’m screwed. Lol.’
I write back in 2 texts: “you left of your own volition.’ ‘lol’.
He responds: “well piss on you 2! Look we’re not together and I’ve got things I need to do here. I was just making a statement.’
By this time I’m busy at work. So I respond: “hey. Not nice. I’m busy I’ll ttyl.’
After work, I text him this (ended up being 3 texts): “ok, A) make w/e statements you want. I was joking around with you. Hence the ‘lol’. B) I KNOW we’re not together. In fact, I don’t even want that anymore. I do however care about you as all my friends. And C) I’ve never EVER told you not to pursue your dreams. I HELP you! If you hate having someone who’s there for you through thick and thin then don’t call me for support or encouragement. It’s what I do for friends. Are we clear now? I still want your friendship but I hope we’ve cleared the air. Is there anything else you’d like to get off your chest?”
He writes back later: “wow. Um, I’m speechless. I’ll digest it. Ttyl. : )”
Today I get an email: “phone i destroyed lookslike never should have come back. You should ee the work over thy gav me lol looks alot worse than it feels. anyways i will be trying to ge a phone as soon aspossible but i've lost all m phone numbers so....”
So I respond freaking out. Asking if he’s safe, can he get back to my city and apt? I’m so upset and worried now.
He just responded: “i'm fine i'm safe for now they did what they set out to do to me.i have begged my mom to let me say here till i get it all set up new phone unemployent and all that i do not know yet if i'm going to stay in Texas or not becaus i am really vengeful right now and i can't wait for god's plan to sort em out anyways i have the number so i'll call you when i can but till then online i a i'e got”
ARGH!!!!! I need a xanax.