forgotten
I used to be very available to people, like I was always free to do whatever. People didn't want to hang out with me that much. So, I got busy. I got a cell phone so people could call me instead of leaving awkward messages on my house answering machine. I got a car to be more accessible. Nothing. Well, nothing that stuck. I tried calling people. No success. I got a boyfriend who filled my loneliness. Then I was forgotten forever. "I always think you're busy," they say. I just think to myself, yea, busy being lonely, and depressed and feeling pathetic for having no friends. Now I feel I've been restricted because I never have any money. I feel that if I only had money to do the things people wanted to do I'd maybe get some friends. Then I thought a little more and I thought back to all the things I got that I thought would remedy the situation in the past. Money's not the real problem. I just can't find people who don't want to spend money. I can't be the only one. I don't know where these people get the money to go out to eat all the time or just go to things in general. I feel so restricted.