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Wow, funny how a day can go from good to bad in only an hour. I had a decently calming morning. Excited to see Kim, and get somethin done on the island. Around the time I thought I was gonna get her, I found out her brother was givin her a ride. So at first I got a little bugged, but let it go. When I got there and parked my car, Steve calls to tell me what a failure I am. Etc etc. I started bawling, hung up. Then Kim and her brother pulled up just as I was ready to head out. Kim tried talkin to me, but I was afraid I wouldn't be able to get anything out without stuttering or cryin more. We got to the island, and from there I went downhill. I'd get upset at people for the smallest things, then got upset because I was upset and being a dick. Then got upset I couldn't just leave before I got myself into anything more. Then got upset that if I left I wouldnt be able to hang out with Kim... After all that, my mood finally started to go up. About 20 minutes later my mom called cause she got locked out. Which wasnt a big deal til Kim told me las second that she had to go home, and I wont see her til tomorrow night. Suddenly I was down again and didnt know how to act. So I tried to keep my distance and get out as fast as possible before I fucked up again. When I got home, I found out my mom got in. She tried to talk to me, but I was hurrying to my room to sleep and get away from myself. She got on my case cause i wouldnt tell her what was up. She ended up storming outta the house and screeching away. So here I am bored in my room, awaiting Mom or Steve to come home and bitch me out some more. Just wanting to cuddle with Kim, and have all my worries go away... God I HATE myself when I'm pmsed.