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Don't mind if this entry is all over the place. Night before last I was at lakefront waiting on Payne. Ran into some guys who were waiting as well, one of which I already met. We talked and whatnot til Payne arrived. Then they were lookin for a place to smoke, so I offered up the idea of the bridge. We all went there and met up with the Kim crew. Got high and drunk, probly got a bit too loud because,when we were walking back to the car to go about our ways we saw flashlights over by the bridge. They were lookin for something. We all took off running. I was so high I was peaking, so everything was trippy. I guess I may have blacked out from lack of air or somethin. Cause I finally started realizing what was goin on when I woke up on the chair in Kim's basement. I ended up stayin the night there. I snuck into Kim's room, and we cuddled all night. It's not often I get to sleep next to her. I was so comfy, I think I slept the best I have in weeks. And woke up to kisses. I layed there watching her put on makeup. *sigh*
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I finally went clubbin weekend before last. Things dont seem the same, maybe cause all my buddies weren't there. Trina, Jordan, and both Lindsays were all there. And drag show was awesome as usual. So in the end it was worth goin. I need to get back in the habit of dancin. Lindsay and Trina were lookin and me funny when I turned down a dance, cause I don't turn down dancing. Hell, usually I dance with 2-4 girls at a time. I did dance once, and it felt good... I'm not gonna go til I get a job though. Sucks Kim can't go yet.
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So yeah, I'm back to the drawing board again. I turned down about 4 job oppurtunities cause school was gonna take up most of my time. Then found out school would cost to much, so I probly wouldnt be going. Then the school worked with us and dropped the prices alot. But by then it was pointless in goin til Fall. So now I'm back to lookin at jobs, and once again my mom gave me a date to get a job by. I hate fucking going around in circles. It wasn't my fault things happened the way they did. I know I need/want a job, I guess I just hate the fact that I have a specific date to have one by. I do need a job now more than ever. Kim and I have been talking about moving in together sometime over Summer or Fall. We don't know where yet, cause we both gotta think about school when we think about a place. So I gotta start saving now. Cut back on spending money on fast food & substances. I am, however, buying a really nice gift to give Kim... You ever get that feeling that things are goin so great, they could never go wrong? God I love that girl.
I think in a few Ima drop off an application. Then meet up with my love, and go do nature stuff alone, til her brother meets us up. It's gonna be nice spending time together doin somethin productive. I have a feeling we wont get much done except cuddling though, heh. Peace. The End.
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I finally went clubbin weekend before last. Things dont seem the same, maybe cause all my buddies weren't there. Trina, Jordan, and both Lindsays were all there. And drag show was awesome as usual. So in the end it was worth goin. I need to get back in the habit of dancin. Lindsay and Trina were lookin and me funny when I turned down a dance, cause I don't turn down dancing. Hell, usually I dance with 2-4 girls at a time. I did dance once, and it felt good... I'm not gonna go til I get a job though. Sucks Kim can't go yet.
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So yeah, I'm back to the drawing board again. I turned down about 4 job oppurtunities cause school was gonna take up most of my time. Then found out school would cost to much, so I probly wouldnt be going. Then the school worked with us and dropped the prices alot. But by then it was pointless in goin til Fall. So now I'm back to lookin at jobs, and once again my mom gave me a date to get a job by. I hate fucking going around in circles. It wasn't my fault things happened the way they did. I know I need/want a job, I guess I just hate the fact that I have a specific date to have one by. I do need a job now more than ever. Kim and I have been talking about moving in together sometime over Summer or Fall. We don't know where yet, cause we both gotta think about school when we think about a place. So I gotta start saving now. Cut back on spending money on fast food & substances. I am, however, buying a really nice gift to give Kim... You ever get that feeling that things are goin so great, they could never go wrong? God I love that girl.
I think in a few Ima drop off an application. Then meet up with my love, and go do nature stuff alone, til her brother meets us up. It's gonna be nice spending time together doin somethin productive. I have a feeling we wont get much done except cuddling though, heh. Peace. The End.