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YAY and nay.. FOR FLASHBACKS!!
think back to what you were doing on may 2nd, 2004--- i remember perfectly..
""ok im very indecisive [02 May 2004|05:36pm]
[ mood | crushed ]
[ music | into the west Annie Lennox ]
when i look back on the past......1,2,.......8 months, i noticed ive made some real good friends, and finally got rid of the bad ones. i look back and remember almost nothing except for these 2 people. i've gotten very attched to them both. losing either one would be devistating. I dont know whatd i do with myself, probably go on...remembering all the good times, cause we barely had any bad ones. i know what will eventually happen, there is nothing i can do to stop it. in the future, the not so far away future, the tirangle will become a straight line between my 2 friends. i will be erased from our portrat, yes we might still be friends, but i will never be the same. i feel like im controling your lives. and dont want to do that.
The guy friend~ man he's so nice! respectful, considerate, all of the above, all you could want, all i cant have.
The girl friend~ you cant say enough. shes everything you could want in a friend and more. always there for you, even if they dont want to be...honest, and trustworthy.
I dont ever want to lose you guys!
i see all of us, 15 years from now, still hanging out together, talking about our lives, and how we miss high school...and how we wish it would never end, or could wait to get out.
all im trying to do right now is get my feelings out. this is what i really feel.
i might not be on later, so if you read this you guys, please call me""
anyone else remember that..?
then waht about this.. (happened the next day)
""The triangle.........is no more [03 May 2004|11:08pm]
[ mood | peaceful ]
[ music | the sound of old memories being filed in big brown boxes ]
not a line, not a point, not a square, not anything.
i gave up on liking, liking ms, its not worth fighting over. i'll settle for best friend. and bh, you just deserve the best. now u young kids...if u can restrain yourslefs for one more year, and a month, u'll be able to go out, legally. but i know how young kids are these days, racing hormones..
i just need to say...
MS~ bh, awesome, best friend ive had, in forever, and i mean it , i havent had any friends before, and she is the one that showed me what a real friendship is. take care of her alright? (i feel like im a father giving a guy permission to marry my daughter..) she deserves nothing less than the best.
BH~ u know how much i liked this guy, and soon you'll see why. i know it seems, (at least to me) that im giving up on my dream, but dont think about it like that. I'm just moving on to differant ones. i know that u say that im too nice and sweet, but other friends, would have what...never talked to u again...i mean...thats impossible! i'm not like other people, i just have to find the right guy. but u gotta hand it to me, i do know how to pick 'em! ms will treat u right, (or he better!!! i know where u live now!) and you'll have some great times, hopefully long times.
I hope nothing will change between all of us~ i hope this nightmare ends.
i have a bad feeling that this isnt the end, but its only the beginning...
i love both you guys, soooooooo much
(yes i said love...)
dont do anything stupid!
*happy tears down cheek*
britt ""
oh man.. the good ol days.. *i seem to be saying that more and more as the days progress.. :-\
hmm.. well.. unfortunatly the spun web above will never be forgoten.. but continues in complications with my strand of webbing..
*metaphor?^^^^*
hmm well.. comment or something cool of the sort..
think back to what you were doing on may 2nd, 2004--- i remember perfectly..
""ok im very indecisive [02 May 2004|05:36pm]
[ mood | crushed ]
[ music | into the west Annie Lennox ]
when i look back on the past......1,2,.......8 months, i noticed ive made some real good friends, and finally got rid of the bad ones. i look back and remember almost nothing except for these 2 people. i've gotten very attched to them both. losing either one would be devistating. I dont know whatd i do with myself, probably go on...remembering all the good times, cause we barely had any bad ones. i know what will eventually happen, there is nothing i can do to stop it. in the future, the not so far away future, the tirangle will become a straight line between my 2 friends. i will be erased from our portrat, yes we might still be friends, but i will never be the same. i feel like im controling your lives. and dont want to do that.
The guy friend~ man he's so nice! respectful, considerate, all of the above, all you could want, all i cant have.
The girl friend~ you cant say enough. shes everything you could want in a friend and more. always there for you, even if they dont want to be...honest, and trustworthy.
I dont ever want to lose you guys!
i see all of us, 15 years from now, still hanging out together, talking about our lives, and how we miss high school...and how we wish it would never end, or could wait to get out.
all im trying to do right now is get my feelings out. this is what i really feel.
i might not be on later, so if you read this you guys, please call me""
anyone else remember that..?
then waht about this.. (happened the next day)
""The triangle.........is no more [03 May 2004|11:08pm]
[ mood | peaceful ]
[ music | the sound of old memories being filed in big brown boxes ]
not a line, not a point, not a square, not anything.
i gave up on liking, liking ms, its not worth fighting over. i'll settle for best friend. and bh, you just deserve the best. now u young kids...if u can restrain yourslefs for one more year, and a month, u'll be able to go out, legally. but i know how young kids are these days, racing hormones..
i just need to say...
MS~ bh, awesome, best friend ive had, in forever, and i mean it , i havent had any friends before, and she is the one that showed me what a real friendship is. take care of her alright? (i feel like im a father giving a guy permission to marry my daughter..) she deserves nothing less than the best.
BH~ u know how much i liked this guy, and soon you'll see why. i know it seems, (at least to me) that im giving up on my dream, but dont think about it like that. I'm just moving on to differant ones. i know that u say that im too nice and sweet, but other friends, would have what...never talked to u again...i mean...thats impossible! i'm not like other people, i just have to find the right guy. but u gotta hand it to me, i do know how to pick 'em! ms will treat u right, (or he better!!! i know where u live now!) and you'll have some great times, hopefully long times.
I hope nothing will change between all of us~ i hope this nightmare ends.
i have a bad feeling that this isnt the end, but its only the beginning...
i love both you guys, soooooooo much
(yes i said love...)
dont do anything stupid!
*happy tears down cheek*
britt ""
oh man.. the good ol days.. *i seem to be saying that more and more as the days progress.. :-\
hmm.. well.. unfortunatly the spun web above will never be forgoten.. but continues in complications with my strand of webbing..
*metaphor?^^^^*
hmm well.. comment or something cool of the sort..