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I know this may be a long ass poem.. but its like what my mind is going back and forth back and forth on.. its kinda abstacted.. its kinda deep.. its kinda scary.. it might make someone cry.. it might make some of you worry about me.. just don't worry to much.. its mostly to one person.. and i hope she reads all the way through.. even if you think it won't end .. even when you think it hurts to much... keep reading you will like the end.... the last section is free form and not rhyming much, but a poem is from the heart and deep in the mind and doesn't have to really rhyme so please take the time and read every single line? and ill thank you in due time and dont you dare skip through it.. read every line ...
im thinkin of suicide
im planning my own demise
i keep remembering your blue eyes
im wondering when you said "i love you" .....
if it was a just a lie
Im wondeirng if im just the fall back guy
or if every fucking affection was just another lie
Oh no, put me in a prison cell
before i take this poison pill
or make a murderous kill
because i want to commit a crime
so i can do some time
and get away from all the lies
just think of me as wise
because i don't want you in my life
when im on the verge of death
when i think i having my last breath
i think about your eyes
i think about our last time
together, having fun
because i thought my life was done
when i was in mid air
thinkin about your beautiful hair
our last kiss
oh i would i know i would miss
because i know you wouldn't know
that i love you so much
that you might not really beleive so
I keep wondering if i want you back
i keep saying i cant stand that
i just want to say i love you
but it makes me sound like a fool
so i try to say leave bitch, fuck you
but its just not true
Im not going to chase after
im not going to ask her
My love just won't fade
I can't withstand all this pain
i feel for her everyday
im just going to start to back away
i take another sharp blade
because im not afraid
i was just persuade
thinkin you loved me
but i should've known it was a damned dream
and not fucking reality!!!
You may say "you made me cry"
you may recite that quote
you may have a tear in your eye
but those tears make me choke
because you hurt me so!
I showed you i love you
i showed it was everlasting
that quote i didn't give a damn about
i was going to love you
cuz i had not doubt
that i love you, like a fool
I know this last part
will just tear me apart
right now i have tears
and i hope i make this last part clear
that i won't be around anymore
because i need to close the door
and get over you
so i can set my mind straight
before i just go completely insane
but right now i can say
That i will love you forever
and it just won't go away
i know it might not get any better
But i hope you go on
and find your self some one good
that you can withstand you
and treat you nice
and i had to say it
but i hope he isn't clingy
like you don't want
because i would have
treated you nice
but i won't be around anymore
so i will say now goodbye
and have yourself a nice life
with someone nice
im thinkin of suicide
im planning my own demise
i keep remembering your blue eyes
im wondering when you said "i love you" .....
if it was a just a lie
Im wondeirng if im just the fall back guy
or if every fucking affection was just another lie
Oh no, put me in a prison cell
before i take this poison pill
or make a murderous kill
because i want to commit a crime
so i can do some time
and get away from all the lies
just think of me as wise
because i don't want you in my life
when im on the verge of death
when i think i having my last breath
i think about your eyes
i think about our last time
together, having fun
because i thought my life was done
when i was in mid air
thinkin about your beautiful hair
our last kiss
oh i would i know i would miss
because i know you wouldn't know
that i love you so much
that you might not really beleive so
I keep wondering if i want you back
i keep saying i cant stand that
i just want to say i love you
but it makes me sound like a fool
so i try to say leave bitch, fuck you
but its just not true
Im not going to chase after
im not going to ask her
My love just won't fade
I can't withstand all this pain
i feel for her everyday
im just going to start to back away
i take another sharp blade
because im not afraid
i was just persuade
thinkin you loved me
but i should've known it was a damned dream
and not fucking reality!!!
You may say "you made me cry"
you may recite that quote
you may have a tear in your eye
but those tears make me choke
because you hurt me so!
I showed you i love you
i showed it was everlasting
that quote i didn't give a damn about
i was going to love you
cuz i had not doubt
that i love you, like a fool
I know this last part
will just tear me apart
right now i have tears
and i hope i make this last part clear
that i won't be around anymore
because i need to close the door
and get over you
so i can set my mind straight
before i just go completely insane
but right now i can say
That i will love you forever
and it just won't go away
i know it might not get any better
But i hope you go on
and find your self some one good
that you can withstand you
and treat you nice
and i had to say it
but i hope he isn't clingy
like you don't want
because i would have
treated you nice
but i won't be around anymore
so i will say now goodbye
and have yourself a nice life
with someone nice