livin' in losungeles and 3 months pregnant!!!
wow, umm, wow, my wife is 16 weeks pregnant this day...we made love on october 4th and wallah! alakazam! a baby is conceived!
okay it takes more than an otamatapia (correct spelling:on·o·mat·o·poe·ia)
to make a baby...
it is...
a miracle!!!
truly it is...even if u watch on youtube videos the stages of birth...life is seriously complicated to make and make and make again as in cells, etc. developing into each other and transitioning. life begins at the very point, where ur 400 million sperm(?) race to the egg to fertilize...
whoa...life is created when the sperm burries its head into the egg and bam...instant big bang!
life is being created at lightning speeds!
(brb, ive got a bowel movement...save.)
alright got sidetracked, im back: 1.25.2014 at 0532hrs...
had to go to county hospital cuz my wife had a breast examination. from the female doc's point of view from a physical examination, everything seems to be alright, so far...cc will b getting her first ultrasound of her life the next appt.
g, i thought u were supposed to get an ultrasound a lot earlier...this is her first, oh well. another shared first experience.
im awake at this hour figuring what my purpose in life is again...what a pain this is bcuz my wife is expecting and i have no career stability, as much as i want to trust in the Lord, i am worried...i am scared, im all of the above frightened...
im not clamouring(?) in my boots as they say (ah, i hate that as they say), wow, i dont think i ever used the word clamor....ahhhh random.
besides that, i took a losungeles county test for a position that would help low income ppl. funny, i am very low income ppl and i cant help myself, nor my family at the moment. a test, where i believe, i was supposed to b working for the city already but by the grace of God, i was able to join over 400 others to take the test at the la convention center near good old staples center. i guess it was a mass hire to replace the retiring ppl? neways...
i didnt pass...
so what does this mean...
im not going to linger about the past, but its soo weird...ive been getting let go from jobs with no particular reason...where they say u just dont fit in type of thing like it some popularity contest, or where im suppose to kiss butt in some way, i dunno...
or
maybe my facial expressions shows something that turns them off? i mean that for my last job...
or i dunno
jus straight up hatin, i agree with the straight up hating one.
neway, i wanted to do something like carpentry, i believe im good with my hands but need major training. i know i can b fast and work hard, etc.
seems as though i am jumping from job to job,
but nowadays, i have to do this for my family...to survive.
how did i get myself into this and bring others with me...
i can only trust in You Christ alone to bring true restoration.
i will trust in You alone and no other Jesus, everyday of my waking life.
as frustrating as it is to not know my purpose, i pray every waking second that i find out what it is...give me direction and a new found life in You.
life is complicating and wonderful at the same time...
restore us once again, Amen.
okay it takes more than an otamatapia (correct spelling:on·o·mat·o·poe·ia)
to make a baby...
it is...
a miracle!!!
truly it is...even if u watch on youtube videos the stages of birth...life is seriously complicated to make and make and make again as in cells, etc. developing into each other and transitioning. life begins at the very point, where ur 400 million sperm(?) race to the egg to fertilize...
whoa...life is created when the sperm burries its head into the egg and bam...instant big bang!
life is being created at lightning speeds!
(brb, ive got a bowel movement...save.)
alright got sidetracked, im back: 1.25.2014 at 0532hrs...
had to go to county hospital cuz my wife had a breast examination. from the female doc's point of view from a physical examination, everything seems to be alright, so far...cc will b getting her first ultrasound of her life the next appt.
g, i thought u were supposed to get an ultrasound a lot earlier...this is her first, oh well. another shared first experience.
im awake at this hour figuring what my purpose in life is again...what a pain this is bcuz my wife is expecting and i have no career stability, as much as i want to trust in the Lord, i am worried...i am scared, im all of the above frightened...
im not clamouring(?) in my boots as they say (ah, i hate that as they say), wow, i dont think i ever used the word clamor....ahhhh random.
besides that, i took a losungeles county test for a position that would help low income ppl. funny, i am very low income ppl and i cant help myself, nor my family at the moment. a test, where i believe, i was supposed to b working for the city already but by the grace of God, i was able to join over 400 others to take the test at the la convention center near good old staples center. i guess it was a mass hire to replace the retiring ppl? neways...
i didnt pass...
so what does this mean...
im not going to linger about the past, but its soo weird...ive been getting let go from jobs with no particular reason...where they say u just dont fit in type of thing like it some popularity contest, or where im suppose to kiss butt in some way, i dunno...
or
maybe my facial expressions shows something that turns them off? i mean that for my last job...
or i dunno
jus straight up hatin, i agree with the straight up hating one.
neway, i wanted to do something like carpentry, i believe im good with my hands but need major training. i know i can b fast and work hard, etc.
seems as though i am jumping from job to job,
but nowadays, i have to do this for my family...to survive.
how did i get myself into this and bring others with me...
i can only trust in You Christ alone to bring true restoration.
i will trust in You alone and no other Jesus, everyday of my waking life.
as frustrating as it is to not know my purpose, i pray every waking second that i find out what it is...give me direction and a new found life in You.
life is complicating and wonderful at the same time...
restore us once again, Amen.