Schooly Things
It's been a while since I've had that urge to go back to school. For those who aren't familiar with my history, I tend to be a bit of a failure at schools, or at least I was. I started straight out of high school, even though I wanted to take a break. My mother insisted I attend, so I did. And I did fairly well at my first college. At least for my first semester. My second semester, my heart problems started and I missed a good chunk of class. Between hospital visits, doctor appointments and feeling like a car ran over me all day, every day . . . well, it didn't exactly make me want to get up at 6:30 for my 7 am class, especially when I had already been up all night.
I changed schools after and utterly failed at that. I hated the teachers, I hated the classes. I hated my degree. I just stopped going.
I was majorly immature. I really wasn't ready for college. I didn't want to be there. I didn't want to get a degree and that made it really hard to go.
Well, now I do. I had a spout about two years ago where I wanted to go back as well - I decided veterinary technology was the place for me. And while I totally loved my job when I worked there, I decided ultimately that it really just wasn't the place I wanted to be for the rest of my life. Love the animals, but not so much the job. That made me really, really bummed and put me off. If even l couldn't decide where I was supposed to go, how in the world would I find where my palace is supposed to be?
I have decided, no matter what, I'm going back to school next fall. I want to. I want to get the degree. No one in my family has ever recieved one and I want to. Part of this depression lies in the fact that I don't feel like anything. That I can't do anything, and I don't matter. I don't have a degree, I've been working dead end jobs (not so much anymore! :D). . so I'd like to change that.
One thing I need this time is to stop putting myself in majors that I think will "look good". My first degree was Psychology, and while I adore the fuck out of it, it's honestly not what I want to do with my life. Neither is Veterinary Technology. I had decided about a month ago that I would go into Criminal Justice. That looks cool and would be great for getting a job anywhere. I like law! I like science! I . . .honestly would probably not do well.
I can't attend a university. Can't afford it and I can't until I get my GPA back up. So I would need to attend a community college and ours are rather . . well, limited on what your choices are.
Right now I'm actually considering Journalism. For many reasons. Yes, I know people think it's useless and boring. I know all the pitfalls - I've been researching them quite a bit over the weekend. But it would force me to write - something I desperately need and something I want to do. I don't mind writing non-fiction and live stories. I used to do it all the time when I was in high school. It involves photography and that is something I love to do. It has just as many pros as it has cons. I've got a long while before I can actually attend anything, so I have plenty of time to decide what I want to do.
So there! There's my long speech!
I changed schools after and utterly failed at that. I hated the teachers, I hated the classes. I hated my degree. I just stopped going.
I was majorly immature. I really wasn't ready for college. I didn't want to be there. I didn't want to get a degree and that made it really hard to go.
Well, now I do. I had a spout about two years ago where I wanted to go back as well - I decided veterinary technology was the place for me. And while I totally loved my job when I worked there, I decided ultimately that it really just wasn't the place I wanted to be for the rest of my life. Love the animals, but not so much the job. That made me really, really bummed and put me off. If even l couldn't decide where I was supposed to go, how in the world would I find where my palace is supposed to be?
I have decided, no matter what, I'm going back to school next fall. I want to. I want to get the degree. No one in my family has ever recieved one and I want to. Part of this depression lies in the fact that I don't feel like anything. That I can't do anything, and I don't matter. I don't have a degree, I've been working dead end jobs (not so much anymore! :D). . so I'd like to change that.
One thing I need this time is to stop putting myself in majors that I think will "look good". My first degree was Psychology, and while I adore the fuck out of it, it's honestly not what I want to do with my life. Neither is Veterinary Technology. I had decided about a month ago that I would go into Criminal Justice. That looks cool and would be great for getting a job anywhere. I like law! I like science! I . . .honestly would probably not do well.
I can't attend a university. Can't afford it and I can't until I get my GPA back up. So I would need to attend a community college and ours are rather . . well, limited on what your choices are.
Right now I'm actually considering Journalism. For many reasons. Yes, I know people think it's useless and boring. I know all the pitfalls - I've been researching them quite a bit over the weekend. But it would force me to write - something I desperately need and something I want to do. I don't mind writing non-fiction and live stories. I used to do it all the time when I was in high school. It involves photography and that is something I love to do. It has just as many pros as it has cons. I've got a long while before I can actually attend anything, so I have plenty of time to decide what I want to do.
So there! There's my long speech!