Dear All,
Should I visit Portland the week after next (the first weekend of October)? I can get a few days off from work by creatively flexing my hours and foregoing overtime. I'd probably be there next Saturday morning through Wednesday afternoon/evening or maybe Thursday sometime.
I can flex next week, too, and try to take off Thursday afternoon/evening instead of Friday evening/Saturday morning. Is there anything really cool going on on Friday which I can justify being there for? I normally can't get a Friday in Portland, you see, because of the way our workweek is structured. And it's a little more awkward asking for the Friday off, since most people like to take Fridays off and I don't want to get a reputation as a flake, or "use up" my slack with my crew/boss, in case I need it later. But I've been feeling really bad lately and I would really like to have some love, affection, and fun. I really, really miss you all.
The alternative, of course, is to just not come. The awkward part is just my feeling that I *shouldn't* be taking any time from work (even if it isn't really--it's flexing my hours within the schedule cleverly so that my free time for two weeks is all consolidated into a nearly-week-long lump). I've only been here almost-four months and the probationary period is six and there was all that mess with the misunderstanding about when I was going to start work and I don't want to start off on the wrong foot. Everyone seems to like me and think I'm doing very well, and the boss-in-charge-of-schedules assures me this is fine, but...I worry, you know?
I've resigned myself, to some degree, to being mostly alone during the holiday season and remainder of the year (unless some of you come to visit me!), except perhaps if my parents decide to drive up for a couple of days. So I'm telling myself this is the last hurrah for awhile, a way to start healing my heart and a well-deserved reward (for what, I confess I don't know). I'm just so very, very homesick, and I want familiar things and people around me for awhile.
There's a part of me, which has a point, that I should really just suck it up and stay here. This won't get any easier if I keep leaving (well, it might, but it also might not). I don't have any more romantic hopes, and my friends will understand if it takes awhile for me to come again. I've just been very lonely lately.
I can, possibly, come sometime in the new year--January or February or so, instead.
Ideally, I should decide tonight. Especially if I plan to flex my schedule next week, since I'll have to start on Monday, and I need to run that by my boss tomorrow. Help!
I can flex next week, too, and try to take off Thursday afternoon/evening instead of Friday evening/Saturday morning. Is there anything really cool going on on Friday which I can justify being there for? I normally can't get a Friday in Portland, you see, because of the way our workweek is structured. And it's a little more awkward asking for the Friday off, since most people like to take Fridays off and I don't want to get a reputation as a flake, or "use up" my slack with my crew/boss, in case I need it later. But I've been feeling really bad lately and I would really like to have some love, affection, and fun. I really, really miss you all.
The alternative, of course, is to just not come. The awkward part is just my feeling that I *shouldn't* be taking any time from work (even if it isn't really--it's flexing my hours within the schedule cleverly so that my free time for two weeks is all consolidated into a nearly-week-long lump). I've only been here almost-four months and the probationary period is six and there was all that mess with the misunderstanding about when I was going to start work and I don't want to start off on the wrong foot. Everyone seems to like me and think I'm doing very well, and the boss-in-charge-of-schedules assures me this is fine, but...I worry, you know?
I've resigned myself, to some degree, to being mostly alone during the holiday season and remainder of the year (unless some of you come to visit me!), except perhaps if my parents decide to drive up for a couple of days. So I'm telling myself this is the last hurrah for awhile, a way to start healing my heart and a well-deserved reward (for what, I confess I don't know). I'm just so very, very homesick, and I want familiar things and people around me for awhile.
There's a part of me, which has a point, that I should really just suck it up and stay here. This won't get any easier if I keep leaving (well, it might, but it also might not). I don't have any more romantic hopes, and my friends will understand if it takes awhile for me to come again. I've just been very lonely lately.
I can, possibly, come sometime in the new year--January or February or so, instead.
Ideally, I should decide tonight. Especially if I plan to flex my schedule next week, since I'll have to start on Monday, and I need to run that by my boss tomorrow. Help!