Personal update and some more bitchin'
A lot of things are going on, the situation at home is pretty tense, Kate is having a break down and it plays on everyone's feelings. I hope this will end soon for her and for all of us, this has been going on for about six months now and I bet that she just hit the wall. jeff and I talked about it and saw that she needs to accept that she is the center of the problem so she can do something about it, seems that now is the time. I feel bad for her, but I just got enough of her ups and downs, I also know that I can't do much for her, she is not close to me and she prefers Jeff and other people, which is ok with me.
She wanted to talk with Jeff and I, I let her express herself and am sure that taking to us was part of the healing process, I told her more than once that I will stop telling her my opinion, because I can be very realistic and honest, so each time we talk about it she gets hurt or very unconfortable (last time she told me that it is her life and that she will do what she wants with it) So I just listen to her and Jeff, then Jeff asked me to participate, I explain that I prefer to stay at bay because of the aftermentioned situation, they insisted so I let her know how I felt once again, it was hard for her to know that I gave up on her, mostly because she felt that other people may do the same, Astrid and Ann already expressed the feeling of letting go.
Besides that today I am feeling bad, after a great week of fun and sun in the village, meeting great people as I was attending and volunteering at the Outgames, enjoying the Opening and closing ceremonies, the wonderful ambiance in the gay village as well as having fun at the SEXgarage, listening to good music, meeting great people and sharing with them I am now back at work, (this is the worst part, I still don’t like this place) just to learn that another one of my only friends here just quit, he found a better job (no wonder). So this doesn’t help.
Enough bitching, I just wanted to rant about my feelings here.