(no subject)
Well there's been a lot going on recently and I'm not going to bother to talk about them except maybe a breif comment which probably still won't occur in this breif entry
This weekend i just was in a bad mood in general so instead of watching movies at movie night ricky and i put up the tree and then sorted through the ornaments that I picked up from my mom's house. I like some but most of them are trash so lots of wasted time YAY. The tree looks good though except it's a bit barren due to the lack of anyone coming over last night but ricky (which i loved) I just wasn't in the mood for decorating anymore. I sgtill haven't gotten a tree topper and I have to get ornament hooks and new ornaments cause dad was like wow these are shit and dismissed the idea of using them so he wants to just buy new ornaments I don't have garland either to pacify myself with a pretty carland christmas tree. So cindy is a bit depressed. I tried to make mint pattys yester day and they didn't turn out right they're really good they just didnt' firm up so that i could cut them os I put them in cupcake papers and threw them in the freezer and they're still safe to eat.
I agree with ricky my perception of time has been skewed by our relationship but i wouldn't trade it for anything. This has been a tough year for me and all of my friends there's been too many deaths as I'm sure you all have experienced. There's been alot of crying nad hurt feelings but through it all ricky has been there for me more then I ever would have expected. He went from just being on of my sophomores to the most important person of my life. THat I will never regret. For once in my life i yelled at someone that they really needed to be in my life and it turned out FABULOUS. As I think about it my life would be so much different right now had I not yelled at him to call me.I would never be friends with Jenkies cause I'd only seen him around school but never really talked to him. Prom night never would have been as wonderful. I would have fallen apart completely after the heatwave trip and jessies death, i'd probably either be with Vinny or nick and I think vinnys wonderful and everything but got I'd become a valley and a tramp and noone would ever like me then. And god help me if I ever dated nick. Rick has helped me though a lot of things and has helped me to smile in even the worst situations. He's made it so I can see my family without having to deal with my mom and that's a great feat even there. My family asks where he is on hollidays he's truly accepted in my family and he's the first person that I can truly say that about. I can say that my friends have become like family and they've been accepted by my immediate family but non have met the majority of the family and rick has meet everyone that I talk to and they all love him and think that we are wonderful together and I would have to agree with them. I can't see me without ricky any time in the future. I can honestly say I can see us in my allendale home someday with a couple of kids surrounded by family and friends decorating a christmas tree and smiling. I love him so much.
This weekend i just was in a bad mood in general so instead of watching movies at movie night ricky and i put up the tree and then sorted through the ornaments that I picked up from my mom's house. I like some but most of them are trash so lots of wasted time YAY. The tree looks good though except it's a bit barren due to the lack of anyone coming over last night but ricky (which i loved) I just wasn't in the mood for decorating anymore. I sgtill haven't gotten a tree topper and I have to get ornament hooks and new ornaments cause dad was like wow these are shit and dismissed the idea of using them so he wants to just buy new ornaments I don't have garland either to pacify myself with a pretty carland christmas tree. So cindy is a bit depressed. I tried to make mint pattys yester day and they didn't turn out right they're really good they just didnt' firm up so that i could cut them os I put them in cupcake papers and threw them in the freezer and they're still safe to eat.
I agree with ricky my perception of time has been skewed by our relationship but i wouldn't trade it for anything. This has been a tough year for me and all of my friends there's been too many deaths as I'm sure you all have experienced. There's been alot of crying nad hurt feelings but through it all ricky has been there for me more then I ever would have expected. He went from just being on of my sophomores to the most important person of my life. THat I will never regret. For once in my life i yelled at someone that they really needed to be in my life and it turned out FABULOUS. As I think about it my life would be so much different right now had I not yelled at him to call me.I would never be friends with Jenkies cause I'd only seen him around school but never really talked to him. Prom night never would have been as wonderful. I would have fallen apart completely after the heatwave trip and jessies death, i'd probably either be with Vinny or nick and I think vinnys wonderful and everything but got I'd become a valley and a tramp and noone would ever like me then. And god help me if I ever dated nick. Rick has helped me though a lot of things and has helped me to smile in even the worst situations. He's made it so I can see my family without having to deal with my mom and that's a great feat even there. My family asks where he is on hollidays he's truly accepted in my family and he's the first person that I can truly say that about. I can say that my friends have become like family and they've been accepted by my immediate family but non have met the majority of the family and rick has meet everyone that I talk to and they all love him and think that we are wonderful together and I would have to agree with them. I can't see me without ricky any time in the future. I can honestly say I can see us in my allendale home someday with a couple of kids surrounded by family and friends decorating a christmas tree and smiling. I love him so much.