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So tonight People decided to be assholes and bitch me out for something that had absolutly nothing to do with me. Why do FUCKING ASSHOLES always have to do this to me take one of the days that I'm actually ok being alone for most of the day. In a good mood and almost chipper minus the fact that my house is sa fucking icebox and I don't have a god damned oven so I can't make anything decent for dinner. And make it to where I'm so fucking upset that i have no choice but to cry myself to sleep and I'm too fucking stressed out to get my much needed food so that when I take my vitamin tonight it won't totally fuck with my stomache and make me feel as if I'm going to barf as soon as I eat something in the morning.
Oh and the reasons I decided not to bowl is cause I'm sick of the bull shit the bickering and the snapping. I love you all individual but 3 over hyper and psycho females on a team just never turns out right and it's too much for me to handle. Not to mention the fact that every time I fucking start getting my back back to normal I bowl and bam then it's fucked up again. Last week I blew out my shoulder cause i gave up, cause it wasn't fun anymore and not a single person gave a shit. and if they can't give a shit neither will I. Bowling just isn't fun anymore and that's something that used to be a passion for me so I quit. Why do something that I have the choice to do or not to do when it's no longer pleasing and when no one can seem to agree on anything and can no longer work as a team through even one set of games. Practice is miserable I'm not going anymore I give. I quit and if you want to bitch I'm not listening cause I already got bitched out by someone who it didn't even fucking effect and that's pisses me off enough I don't want to hear anything I fucking quit.
I'm quitting walking up to people because I wanted to talk to them fuck this shit if I don't exist unless I say something to you then obviously it's not worth me existing so I'm not bothering anymore. I'll talk to you if you talk to me and other then that FUCK OFF cause I don't care anymore. After this week it seems there are very few people in my life that matter any more and very few people that are worth my emotion. and after tonight one more of those people I have deemed not worth my emotion. But too late it already has affected me. Too bad he's the person that I love to talk to the most usually he makes so much sense until on nights like tonight he decideds he doesnt' care who he's talking to he's going to be a complete asshole and I don't fucking deserve to be treated that way by someone i was once head over heals for and who loved me back this shit just isn't worth it. you know you used to be someone i turned to when I wasn't sure what to do because I fucking respected but when you start treating me like you would your enemy I know you're not who I thought you were and it's not worth it for me to respect your opinions anymore. You're changing and you don't even realize it what a pity something about you becoming human has gotten to your head. Too bad you'll never be truly human cause you forget what it's like to be human and to feel, and be felt for.
Oh and the reasons I decided not to bowl is cause I'm sick of the bull shit the bickering and the snapping. I love you all individual but 3 over hyper and psycho females on a team just never turns out right and it's too much for me to handle. Not to mention the fact that every time I fucking start getting my back back to normal I bowl and bam then it's fucked up again. Last week I blew out my shoulder cause i gave up, cause it wasn't fun anymore and not a single person gave a shit. and if they can't give a shit neither will I. Bowling just isn't fun anymore and that's something that used to be a passion for me so I quit. Why do something that I have the choice to do or not to do when it's no longer pleasing and when no one can seem to agree on anything and can no longer work as a team through even one set of games. Practice is miserable I'm not going anymore I give. I quit and if you want to bitch I'm not listening cause I already got bitched out by someone who it didn't even fucking effect and that's pisses me off enough I don't want to hear anything I fucking quit.
I'm quitting walking up to people because I wanted to talk to them fuck this shit if I don't exist unless I say something to you then obviously it's not worth me existing so I'm not bothering anymore. I'll talk to you if you talk to me and other then that FUCK OFF cause I don't care anymore. After this week it seems there are very few people in my life that matter any more and very few people that are worth my emotion. and after tonight one more of those people I have deemed not worth my emotion. But too late it already has affected me. Too bad he's the person that I love to talk to the most usually he makes so much sense until on nights like tonight he decideds he doesnt' care who he's talking to he's going to be a complete asshole and I don't fucking deserve to be treated that way by someone i was once head over heals for and who loved me back this shit just isn't worth it. you know you used to be someone i turned to when I wasn't sure what to do because I fucking respected but when you start treating me like you would your enemy I know you're not who I thought you were and it's not worth it for me to respect your opinions anymore. You're changing and you don't even realize it what a pity something about you becoming human has gotten to your head. Too bad you'll never be truly human cause you forget what it's like to be human and to feel, and be felt for.