Grrr...
I'm simply tired for some reason. Not physically, but rather mentally. I'm tired of fighting the so many different sides of my life. I just want to go sit in the corner, close my eyes, just let the walls close, and let life continue as it is. Yet as much as i try, i simply can't. It always feels like your blood is boiling. Everyone describes this feeling as a single flame inside of you, well mine feels like frikin inferno in your soul(or in my case, whatever is left of it) - making you suffer yet driving you at the same time. Attempting to calm it down is like trying to shackle a beast that simply can't be binded down. All driving you towards one goal, forcing you to give up anything that may even come close to becoming an obstacle. But it is no longer the inferno in my soul driving me, for it has merged with my consciousness - i have accepted it...embraced it. Knowing that one is willing to sacrifice everything for just one thing is rather chilling. And so the gates of insanity open...