Sometimes it pays to stay in bed in Monday
I really wish I had this morning. I feel horrible. I woke up at 5:30am in physical pain. I slept late and arrived at work late, meaning I have to stay at work later. And I totally can't even concentrate so I'm sitting here staring at the computer screen not doing anything.
I said some stupid stuff in the last few days and made things even more complicated in what was supposed to be an uncomplicated situation.
My roommate is having dinner with my ex tonight (which is fine - they've been friends since they were 15). But it also brings up a lot of emotions for me because the ex still won't talk to me and it drives me nuts and I want so badly to stop loving her, but no matter how much I want that, it doesn't just go away. And the worst part is, she has completely changed in the last few months. She's not even the person I dated for almost three years. And I just heard that she feels like she doesn't even owe me an explanation of why we ended. God, I hate her so much. She doesn't like to do things that make HER feel upset or sad. She's so fucking selfish. She needs to grow up.
My friend canceled on me for dinner tonight at what's supposed to be the best burger place in LA and I was so looking forward to it. Especially because it would give me a distraction while my roommate and ex are having dinner.
I have to suffer through another Blair-less Monday night. And no Olivia Wilde? What are the TV gods doing to me?? Thank God for my girlfriend Sarah. It's okay that she's cheating on me with Chuck. They're good together and I would totally be okay with a threesome with them ;)
And because I need to stare at something pretty (and obviously so does Chuck):
I said some stupid stuff in the last few days and made things even more complicated in what was supposed to be an uncomplicated situation.
My roommate is having dinner with my ex tonight (which is fine - they've been friends since they were 15). But it also brings up a lot of emotions for me because the ex still won't talk to me and it drives me nuts and I want so badly to stop loving her, but no matter how much I want that, it doesn't just go away. And the worst part is, she has completely changed in the last few months. She's not even the person I dated for almost three years. And I just heard that she feels like she doesn't even owe me an explanation of why we ended. God, I hate her so much. She doesn't like to do things that make HER feel upset or sad. She's so fucking selfish. She needs to grow up.
My friend canceled on me for dinner tonight at what's supposed to be the best burger place in LA and I was so looking forward to it. Especially because it would give me a distraction while my roommate and ex are having dinner.
I have to suffer through another Blair-less Monday night. And no Olivia Wilde? What are the TV gods doing to me?? Thank God for my girlfriend Sarah. It's okay that she's cheating on me with Chuck. They're good together and I would totally be okay with a threesome with them ;)
And because I need to stare at something pretty (and obviously so does Chuck):