i don't know right now other then to be alive and healthy and have my family the same!

i wish there was a different way with going about this! i miss it all!

i wonder and yet wondering can get your hopes up and let you down and yet other times it can be the only thing to bring joy to yourself
to wonder or not to wonder... if i could only just be happy with either outcome...haha both can make me cry and both can make me happy... shit!

i almost got through all of the day yesterday. i tried to be strong and hopefully will be better cause now I'm going day to day thing and i just need to handle things the best way that I can. I thought that everything that I went through last year was hard well... this feels like I have jst been beaten to death and now I cant move and everything I ( Read more... )

the phantom of the opera
chi tea latte
wycleff jean
having the day off from work
good big breakfest
planning parties
being broke for a good reason
greys anatomy
dave matthews band
my boyfriend

and the list goes on and on...

i finally got my scholarship money and the check was written to me!!!!! this will help me so much in the next weeks! Life changing more like it! It couldnt have been a better time for it to come!

ok so i need a car like really flippin bad

im tired... my feet hurt... and all i want to do is sleep but the house that i live in with the family that i was placed with are the loudest people ever right now!

4 days!!!!!!!!!

14 more days till schools out... june 1st is prom..... june 4th is graduation.... june 6th is dave matthews band concert.... june 24th is heidi and I's graduation party togather at her house! is seems like its taking forever...