:) ...life's kinda awesome that way..
So much to post on so little time til i pass out....well i feel like shit today...thank u roomate....me and her are in a permenant fight but we wont tell her just yet...life has been busy/good though lately...my life is pretty much nonstop from about 8 am til 9 at nite everyday....it makes things interesting i guess...this summer was kinda a real bust...didnt do to much...had issues with work...worked to much...and went through alot of shit with the bf....i really thought we would break up there for a good part of the summer with all the shit that happened between us....but then school started and things got better....school has been difficult as usual but with working 2 jobs and balancing skool im a tad proud of myself and that ive been very effecient at it...im doing decent so far..not great but hopefully things will get better....im slowing balancing a social life with school/work...but it still needs alot of progress....theres still alot of ppl i need to hang out more with like jess, sheri, todd, brandon...cuzin, bro bro, rich, ryan(10th grade ex....yea..?)...yea and all those ppl that have been asking me to do something and i just cant find the time or energy...it sucks....but hopefully that will change....but on another note...the bf....bc talking about him will make me feel better for the moment being....i was uber sad to find out he was moving home this week and wouldnt be in buffalo anymore...i cried a whole lot and being the amazing bf he is he told me he would do anything to make me happy, stay here even if he didnt want to...of course i told him that he should do what he wanted bc i know he was miserable in his apt now and the way things were with that whole household....so he moves back home tmmrw temporarily...of course on the other side of that...he's planning on living with me for part of the week now....im so utterly confused about this...this is just unfamiliar territory for me... in the one sense this is just so strange, we have been getting along so amazingly lately its ridiculous...he makes me so happy i just cant believe it...its like we got all of our fighting out of the way over the summer...now its just great...we seem to see eye to eye on everything...ive never had this with anyone...weve seen each other for almost every night for the past two weeks and i havent gotten sick of seeing him or anything and hes been perfectly happy with it too...and we actually do stuff together..we dont just sit around all of the time...its really nice....and if he starts living here for part of the week and home for the rest...ill probably see him alot more too...and i guess itll just be interesting to see what thats like....weve only been going out for a little over 4 months now(broke all of the records of course) but were getting along better than ever and im even scaring myself a little when i say i can really see myself with him for quite a while...my parents/family are like in love with him....(o and my mommy told me she is so proud of me and shes actually rooting for this one) ....this is very unfamilar/unknown territory for me....i really am so perplexed about it...this is so not me at all....but i kinda like it....well time to pass out...i feel sick again...but cant wait to see what the next few weeks are like....yikes!!
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