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merrah........ i seriously need to just focus on just working and chilling at home now. I need to save so much money and i still have nothing to show for it, its sad. I also want to just stay in for awhile because I'm tired of being let down or disappointed with things like girls for instance. I mean yeah theres a certain someone I really like and I absolutely love being around her all the time but I know me and her would never be a "couple" because of too many things. It just seems that everytime I seriously find someone so great, something keeps them away from me. and I didnt even look this time, like i wasnt looking for anyone to be with and i wasnt lonely. I just loved and still love being around her and just love talking to her and it just grew and grew. but i guess i have to not tihnk about and just get over it like every other girl. merrah, but i can say i had a bad ass time last night. Went to amandas house with a few peeps and some of them got drunk or other. We all went skinny dipping in the pool, went to wally world at 3 in the morning, went back to amandas, ate some food that we got at wally world, and just hung out and all talked till about 7 this morning. Best time ive had with my friends in a long ass time.