seemed vaguely apt strangely, sometimes they just hit u like that...
Here I am on
The phone again and
Awkward silence is
On the other end
I used to know
The sound of a smile
In your voice
But right now
All I feel
Is the pain of the fighting
Starting up again
All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind (on my mind)
All the things we laugh about
They'll bring us through it every time (after time, after time)
Don't say a word
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away
I know you want to stay
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Some say that
Time changes
Best friends can
Become strangers
But I don't want that
No not for you
If you just stay with me
We can make it through
So here we are again
Same old arguement
And now I'm wondering
If things'll ever change, yeah
When will you laugh again?
Laugh like you did back when
We made noise till 3 am
And the neighbors would complain
All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind (on my mind)
All the things we laugh about
They'll bring us through it every time (after time, after time)
Don't say a word
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away
I know you want to stay
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
so im not depressed this evening (which is nice) just feel...strange, contemplative
i think too much
if i dont update this for a while, its not because i have nothing to say, its usually the opposite
i have too much
too much in my mind, too many things to think about and obsess over
too many silly mistakes
i need to keep occupied so as not to think too much, i literally sometimes drive myself insane with it
panic attacks, hysterics, being down
ok i promise im not depressed tonight
just wanted to write some things down
my relationships with men, any men, are so screwed
not only do i get attached too easily but i hang onto things too much too
but then, im also proud of myself for the way i have managed to deal with things, some things which are so painful (havnt told u these things by the way before u ask) yet we all have to keep going dont we?
i sometimes think in our coushy, yes coushy existence, with our television, comfy beds and opportunities laid out we end up inventing problems for ourselves, make mountains out of molehills so to speak
it must be human nature to need something to challenge us in our lives, whether a tricky relationship, an argument with a friend or simply a stress about something or other. this is normal, its the way we are
but sometimes i wish i could stand back from that bullshit and have a bit of perspective.
my life is not that bad
i have been through bad things, sure, and we're told it makes us stronger
bad moods lift, arguments get sorted and even if we're threatened of being chucked out of school it can still be turned around
ultimately it is up to u how u live your life, yet it is the little things which make it interesting
i sometimes look at myself and think, bloody hell, why r u so complex, do normal ppl think that way? do they obsess? do they fidget and cry and struggle to breathe sometimes?
i can never really know the answer because well, i am me, i can't live as anyone else
but one rather annoying thing i do know about myself, is that if i am having a "thing" or a fling so to speak, with a bloke, then it usually gets fucked up, i either get used, or they lose interest, or i get cheated on, or it just dusnt work, blah blah etc
but then, when i dont have a guy in my life to think about b4 i go 2 sleep at nite, to wonder why he hasnt txt me, i am ridiculously bored
either i am insane
or just a woman
ah well i shall leave u 2 ponder on my confusing drivel as im knackered
nite xxxx
The phone again and
Awkward silence is
On the other end
I used to know
The sound of a smile
In your voice
But right now
All I feel
Is the pain of the fighting
Starting up again
All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind (on my mind)
All the things we laugh about
They'll bring us through it every time (after time, after time)
Don't say a word
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away
I know you want to stay
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Some say that
Time changes
Best friends can
Become strangers
But I don't want that
No not for you
If you just stay with me
We can make it through
So here we are again
Same old arguement
And now I'm wondering
If things'll ever change, yeah
When will you laugh again?
Laugh like you did back when
We made noise till 3 am
And the neighbors would complain
All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind (on my mind)
All the things we laugh about
They'll bring us through it every time (after time, after time)
Don't say a word
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away
I know you want to stay
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
so im not depressed this evening (which is nice) just feel...strange, contemplative
i think too much
if i dont update this for a while, its not because i have nothing to say, its usually the opposite
i have too much
too much in my mind, too many things to think about and obsess over
too many silly mistakes
i need to keep occupied so as not to think too much, i literally sometimes drive myself insane with it
panic attacks, hysterics, being down
ok i promise im not depressed tonight
just wanted to write some things down
my relationships with men, any men, are so screwed
not only do i get attached too easily but i hang onto things too much too
but then, im also proud of myself for the way i have managed to deal with things, some things which are so painful (havnt told u these things by the way before u ask) yet we all have to keep going dont we?
i sometimes think in our coushy, yes coushy existence, with our television, comfy beds and opportunities laid out we end up inventing problems for ourselves, make mountains out of molehills so to speak
it must be human nature to need something to challenge us in our lives, whether a tricky relationship, an argument with a friend or simply a stress about something or other. this is normal, its the way we are
but sometimes i wish i could stand back from that bullshit and have a bit of perspective.
my life is not that bad
i have been through bad things, sure, and we're told it makes us stronger
bad moods lift, arguments get sorted and even if we're threatened of being chucked out of school it can still be turned around
ultimately it is up to u how u live your life, yet it is the little things which make it interesting
i sometimes look at myself and think, bloody hell, why r u so complex, do normal ppl think that way? do they obsess? do they fidget and cry and struggle to breathe sometimes?
i can never really know the answer because well, i am me, i can't live as anyone else
but one rather annoying thing i do know about myself, is that if i am having a "thing" or a fling so to speak, with a bloke, then it usually gets fucked up, i either get used, or they lose interest, or i get cheated on, or it just dusnt work, blah blah etc
but then, when i dont have a guy in my life to think about b4 i go 2 sleep at nite, to wonder why he hasnt txt me, i am ridiculously bored
either i am insane
or just a woman
ah well i shall leave u 2 ponder on my confusing drivel as im knackered
nite xxxx