Men.. UGH
"Intimacy is a four syllable word for, "Here's my heart and soul, please grind them into hamburger, and enjoy." It's both desired, and feared. Difficult to live with, and impossible to live without." Meredith - Grey's Anatomy
Why is it that we girls get so worked up when a guy doesn't call? Yet he's probably sitting at home, watching tv in his underwear not even noticing that he hasn't talked to us in awhile. Why are our brians so different?
Please remind me that I like being single, I have quite a few boys knocking at my door, and there's no need for me to get so wrapped up in 1 guy. Who cares if he doesn't call.. in my heart I know he probably has a good excuse. And really.. he doesn't need an excuse. He's not my boyfriend, he's not obligated to call me everyday. But this is the boy who introduced me to his friend's as "the hot girl I'm seeing" after just 2 dates and a lot of phone calls. The boy who calls me "Sweetie, hun, babe" etc. The boy who said "One day I hope you're my girlfriend"
But I've told myself if he doesn't call, Oh well.. c'est la vie. I'll call up one of my backups ;)
So why am I sitting here with a knot in my stomach wondering why he hasn't called.. why he didn't text me back... UGH. I totally know I'm waaaay over analying and being a complete dork. And hopefully I'll look at this tomorrow and say "I'm such an idiot!" But i just had ot get it out.
P.S I have a date scheduled for Friday with Chris and I'm not sure if I wanna go... Mike called me last night and said he wants to hang out with me again soon. Derek is practically begging me to go to the city and hang out with him tomorrow... all this attention and yet, I talked to Jeremy today and I realized I'm still so into him. No matter how much I tell myself I'm over him, I know I'm not. I miss him like crazy even though I know he treated me worse than I deserve. But I'd give anything to be laying in bed with him right now in his arms, scratching his back and teasing him about how his football team sucks (For the record, this entry isn't about Jeremy). Once again: Can't have the ones I want, and don't want the ones that want me.\
Oh.. and did I mention my New Years Resolution was to stop being so boy crazy and just relax.. I think I'm failing already...
Why is it that we girls get so worked up when a guy doesn't call? Yet he's probably sitting at home, watching tv in his underwear not even noticing that he hasn't talked to us in awhile. Why are our brians so different?
Please remind me that I like being single, I have quite a few boys knocking at my door, and there's no need for me to get so wrapped up in 1 guy. Who cares if he doesn't call.. in my heart I know he probably has a good excuse. And really.. he doesn't need an excuse. He's not my boyfriend, he's not obligated to call me everyday. But this is the boy who introduced me to his friend's as "the hot girl I'm seeing" after just 2 dates and a lot of phone calls. The boy who calls me "Sweetie, hun, babe" etc. The boy who said "One day I hope you're my girlfriend"
But I've told myself if he doesn't call, Oh well.. c'est la vie. I'll call up one of my backups ;)
So why am I sitting here with a knot in my stomach wondering why he hasn't called.. why he didn't text me back... UGH. I totally know I'm waaaay over analying and being a complete dork. And hopefully I'll look at this tomorrow and say "I'm such an idiot!" But i just had ot get it out.
P.S I have a date scheduled for Friday with Chris and I'm not sure if I wanna go... Mike called me last night and said he wants to hang out with me again soon. Derek is practically begging me to go to the city and hang out with him tomorrow... all this attention and yet, I talked to Jeremy today and I realized I'm still so into him. No matter how much I tell myself I'm over him, I know I'm not. I miss him like crazy even though I know he treated me worse than I deserve. But I'd give anything to be laying in bed with him right now in his arms, scratching his back and teasing him about how his football team sucks (For the record, this entry isn't about Jeremy). Once again: Can't have the ones I want, and don't want the ones that want me.\
Oh.. and did I mention my New Years Resolution was to stop being so boy crazy and just relax.. I think I'm failing already...