Missing G
Its been almost a year without G and a hell of year its been. To see the steps that graddad has taken i still remember the day he walked in those parallel bars and all he wanted to do was go home...and i think it broke his heart everytime i said soon. and soon came 5 months later. it seems like just yesterday i was driving 90 down the freeway to be with G in her final day, i knew this was it and i prayed the whole way there...it was the worst 22 hours of my life to sit a see her and listen knowing she wanted to talk but her body wouldnt let her. so we just sat and came clean about all the trivial shit we did in our lives that she would just laugh at...cause it didnt matter anymore she was gone and i know she is better off and blah blah blah whatever but that selfish part of me wants her here with us for thanksgiving a christmas...she loved christmas. and to see zach graduate college and be there for my wedding and everything all the important things she is missing out on i know she is seeing it all with renee but its not the same i dont have anyone to call anymore at noon after class to tell her the recent events of the day...i just wish she was here to see it all and be a part of everything but she isnt and maybe its better off. so ill put ranaldo by the tree and the ornament up in her honor and make the best of a really bad year...