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once more I'm not sure what to do. work has decided to take longer than I hoped on this transfer gave them the deadline of Dec 1. as well my folks said I should quit and just apply to a new center up there. I laughed, and asked I don't want to be in this one why the hell would I want to go to another one?" was told valid point.
My moms mom passed this week as well. now I was never close to Shirley But I was glad she and my mom made peace. (yes the song ding dong the witch is dead went through my head. briefly) I'm happy she's out of pain. I think that's the only saving grace of death at times. is it ends suffering for those in it.
Lets see what else is new. oh yes Kem came back to the clan. He loves us, and wants to try even though he's afraid of a lot of things. strange that three people can seem to help and complete each other, Okay we were complete before, but it feels right and like something better.
yup I'm getting mushy over two men. um wow I thought I'd be the crazy cat person later in life, well there's still time I guess.
now on the road of self discovery, I've learned I can take a lot of things yet alone for long periods of time still not good at, which is weird as I seem to put myself there a lot. I've had people ask why don't I go out and do things when done work. my answer is the last thing I want to do when feeling like a ball of rejected, and abused flesh is deal with people who may or may not have made me feel this way.
My moms mom passed this week as well. now I was never close to Shirley But I was glad she and my mom made peace. (yes the song ding dong the witch is dead went through my head. briefly) I'm happy she's out of pain. I think that's the only saving grace of death at times. is it ends suffering for those in it.
Lets see what else is new. oh yes Kem came back to the clan. He loves us, and wants to try even though he's afraid of a lot of things. strange that three people can seem to help and complete each other, Okay we were complete before, but it feels right and like something better.
yup I'm getting mushy over two men. um wow I thought I'd be the crazy cat person later in life, well there's still time I guess.
now on the road of self discovery, I've learned I can take a lot of things yet alone for long periods of time still not good at, which is weird as I seem to put myself there a lot. I've had people ask why don't I go out and do things when done work. my answer is the last thing I want to do when feeling like a ball of rejected, and abused flesh is deal with people who may or may not have made me feel this way.