HELLO MY LOVES
WOW! i am so happy to hear from all 3 of you. you are all amazing people! and i am so blessed to have such wonderful friends. you all make up for so much!
ok so the weekend was fun. i had my Camp Paz weekend camp. i love them like no other. helping people gives you the best feeling in the world. and after that i got to see the love of my life and that is the best way to end a weekend! he is so amazing! i could not ask for a better boyfriend! and it was weird, i have never missed someone the way i missed him over the weekend. i mean i got for 5 days not seeing him, and then see him on the weekends, i miss him yeah, but not like this. i didn't like it. but it made sunday night a lot of fun! but i am very happy cuz he is so truthful with me. you know how some guys will tell you what they think you want to hear. i can so tell that he does not do that. it makes me so happy. he tells me how he really feels. i love it! so as you all know i am in love with him!
so i am very excited for this weekend. i have prom on saturday and matthew seems really jazzed to so thats cool. i think we are all going to have a great time! cayleigh's dad is going to take pictures for us so i wont have to get them done at the dance and dinner is going to be wonderful. we are going to the Chart house. or something like that. and all the parents are going to be meeting at Cayleigh's for pics at the same time. then we'll come up here for my dad and dee and cayleigh's mom. so that should be fun! then to the prom. and then after that we are going to chill at matthew's house then cayleigh and i are going to her house. so it'll be one of the best weekends ever!
as for the parents. i told my father that i am going to move out. it went better then i was thinking it would. and dee is being nice, and that is not what i though was going to happen. but it's cool that she is not being childish or mean. i think she just might see the good in all of this. i really hope i'm right in that it will help with my relationship with them. i know my dad does not see it, but i will still do my best to make it work. and my grandparents are looking forward to being able to see me more. and i talked with my grandma about rules and such, it's going to be different but it will be good for me. i know i am not going to be able to watch the TV i want to, i know that i wont be able to take my 20 minute showers that i do now, and i know i will have to work on my figure, she cooks dinner all the time, and it'll smell cuz of the smoke. but i am still thinking it will help. i will have to work a lot more and spend more time working to make money to pay for more things, and i'll have someone asking me questions all the time, but i'm looking forward to it. she really wants to talk to my dad about all of this. the whole money thing, papers, and who knows what else. but i hope it goes well. i hope that my dad will give her what she wants. she knows what is best for me, and i know that she is going to work hard to get it. i think i am going to get a lot out fo this. and all of you know how i get what i want, and will work hard for it, so i have faith that i will not end up with a relationship like my sister has with my father. i really want him to be able to take me kids out and be at my wedding, do random lunches and all that stuff. i just hope that he will see that this is not something i did cuz i was mad. i hope he can see that i know this is the best for all of us. and that i have been thinking about this for a very long time. and that i have been trying to fix it, and make it work. if he does great, if not, well it wont be the first time, and i'll just have to work that much harder for what i want. so thats whats up with the parents as of today.
i wish you all the best of luck in life and a wonderful day.
much love to all of you
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