almost lucid...
ok i had a bit of a break from OBEs due to real world issues. (thanks life, ur fucking up my schedule!) Primarily due to things like my holiday and the new apartment... speaking of which, it should be ready in NINE DAYS! :) wooooooo.
But i have had difficulty repeating things since my initial success, which kind of made me lose a bit of interest. This past week has been somewhat interesting, probably because i've been thinking about OBEs and Lucidity and Astral etc etc. Its seems tho, because i'd been contemplating obe's again, i had a dream about them lol (not the desired result i'll admit). Just the other day i had a dream of floating around with some friends yet couldnt get through the ceiling, it was very vague and i had no control.. was an observing dream. But upon waking i had to admire the metaphor it presented... hitting my head on the ceiling with OBE's, my subconcious is a genius haha.
Saying that, i do actually think my subconcious is kind of aware that i want to take control of my dreams and is activley doing things to prevent it... its like fighting with your inner twin brother lol. I have been remembering my dreams alot more often since i started, but it got more and more to where id wake up and think "shit, that was SO obviously a dream!.. why didnt i realise?.. i'm going to realise next time!!". Ever since, my dreams have become very boring and monotonous like real life, making it hard to distinguish. I'd have dreams of being at work where nothing particuarly interesting happens, or just being on my computer or out with some friends. Its like having 2 real lives... its frustrating coz real life is so crap! lol.
But i have had difficulty repeating things since my initial success, which kind of made me lose a bit of interest. This past week has been somewhat interesting, probably because i've been thinking about OBEs and Lucidity and Astral etc etc. Its seems tho, because i'd been contemplating obe's again, i had a dream about them lol (not the desired result i'll admit). Just the other day i had a dream of floating around with some friends yet couldnt get through the ceiling, it was very vague and i had no control.. was an observing dream. But upon waking i had to admire the metaphor it presented... hitting my head on the ceiling with OBE's, my subconcious is a genius haha.
Saying that, i do actually think my subconcious is kind of aware that i want to take control of my dreams and is activley doing things to prevent it... its like fighting with your inner twin brother lol. I have been remembering my dreams alot more often since i started, but it got more and more to where id wake up and think "shit, that was SO obviously a dream!.. why didnt i realise?.. i'm going to realise next time!!". Ever since, my dreams have become very boring and monotonous like real life, making it hard to distinguish. I'd have dreams of being at work where nothing particuarly interesting happens, or just being on my computer or out with some friends. Its like having 2 real lives... its frustrating coz real life is so crap! lol.