Halloween
Today is halloween and my biggest nightmare just walked into my house no more then 20 minutes ago.
he stood there big as life with a stance that made me tense even still.
He asked me whether I was coming over for dinner? I told him no.
He asked how long I was going to hold this grudge? I looked at his face with his graying beard, eyes I could not see and a facial expression I could not make out and said.
No. I'm not holding a grudge. I'm just removing myself from a situation I no longer want to be apart of.
He made no motion to strike. No deep breathe was taken to yell. No finger was pointed at me. No harsh words were said.
He said ok. Paused and asked. Are you sure you want it this way? I said in a voice that could have been louder. Yes.
and then my nightmare left taking with him the light of my nephew by his side.
I am left empty, alone and lost. A bad dream that I knew I would one day have to face but never wanted too.
if you are confused as to what's going on I had recently stop communicating with my father due to a continuous situation I came to realize would never change and that I was never going to be able to change.
he stood there big as life with a stance that made me tense even still.
He asked me whether I was coming over for dinner? I told him no.
He asked how long I was going to hold this grudge? I looked at his face with his graying beard, eyes I could not see and a facial expression I could not make out and said.
No. I'm not holding a grudge. I'm just removing myself from a situation I no longer want to be apart of.
He made no motion to strike. No deep breathe was taken to yell. No finger was pointed at me. No harsh words were said.
He said ok. Paused and asked. Are you sure you want it this way? I said in a voice that could have been louder. Yes.
and then my nightmare left taking with him the light of my nephew by his side.
I am left empty, alone and lost. A bad dream that I knew I would one day have to face but never wanted too.
if you are confused as to what's going on I had recently stop communicating with my father due to a continuous situation I came to realize would never change and that I was never going to be able to change.