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I went to bed after work & slept till 9:30pm. Upon waking, I wanted to cut. Which is strange, really, cuz I haven't wanted to hurt myself in a long time.
I freaked out silently at work today. On the way home I bought two packages of chocolate from a local store & gobbled them up. As a result my mind is wonky from the sugar & I feel like shit. I've been trying so hard & it's not working.
Everything's so LOUD. I can't wait for fall/winter. I'm feeling exta sensitive & need to shut out all the stimulus, but can't.
I miss mom. The ache starts in my arms & spreads throughout the rest of my body.
I used to think I was too sensitive to live. No one should have to deal/handle so much stimulus & therefore I wasn't meant to be. I think about going in to work tomorrow & having to put up with the craziness crap & I shudder.
I freaked out silently at work today. On the way home I bought two packages of chocolate from a local store & gobbled them up. As a result my mind is wonky from the sugar & I feel like shit. I've been trying so hard & it's not working.
Everything's so LOUD. I can't wait for fall/winter. I'm feeling exta sensitive & need to shut out all the stimulus, but can't.
I miss mom. The ache starts in my arms & spreads throughout the rest of my body.
I used to think I was too sensitive to live. No one should have to deal/handle so much stimulus & therefore I wasn't meant to be. I think about going in to work tomorrow & having to put up with the craziness crap & I shudder.