5 years later...
Man oh man. Time truly does fly by. Has it really been five years since I've posted here? I figured I'd go pay my old LJ a visit.
Wow, such a mess. I'm really such a cornball, reading these old entries and looking at all these dorky things I used to do(and sometimes still do). I'm tempted to lock all the old entries out of embarrasment. haha I can't and I shan't. Well maybe delete a few terrible ones. We'll see. I definitely need to do some cleaning up. It looks like I lost a few friends too. :( Obviously being away 5 years does that and some other reasons. Really sad to lose certain people. I really miss some of the comments. I'm rarely petty nor do I burn bridges, life happens and everyone is different. I'd say the bridge is still open if you ever want to return but I'm not gonna clutter anyone's list so consider myself removed.
Anyway, I just needed another place to write again. I'm not looking to write anything profound or enlightening. That's my other blog which I'm still working on atm. I just felt like I needed to come back to where I began and to a place I know certain people won't read or find. And so here I am 5 years later...
so here's a short-ish bulleted update since I last wrote
life in general
- partied hardy in college (best times of my life)
- switched circle of friends (break up between two close friends/ inevitably had to pick a side)
- graduated from Stony
- got job w/ a non-profit
- discovered the happiness of 'happy hour'
- 3 promotions woohoo despite having crashed my boss's car (woops)
- back in school for accounting
- work full time/school part time (less social life)
- hopefully move away from home soon
the love life
- crushed on my close friend
- he ended up dating another close friend :(
- bad break up I chose the other close friend(now my true blue bestest friend who I luv dearly)
- dated emo boy (I like blondes :))
- he broke up with me (distance issues over the summer :rolls eyes: he was just out in LI)
- emo boy sent me random txt in the summer that he wanted to see me ( i was still mad and so i ignored)
- crush on suitemate during summer
- this same suitemate is my suitemate during the fall and I find out he's gay!
- gay roomate(drunk) walks into my room while I was studying (scene out of a gay porn ensues)
- no strings attached w/ gay suitemate
- surprise surprise former bf(whatever we were) wants to get back w/ me in the fall
- we started talking again
- he ended up getting drunk at MY dorm party and blowing my suitemate in our bathroom
- super upset at this turn events (bitter about guys since)
- a few meaningless hookups
- crush on co-worker (he has a bf :()
- discovered craigslist O_o
- crush on another co-worker (he has a boyfriend too except he's away)
- start hanging out with this co-worker (a natural sort of chemistry develops)
- he flirts a lot with me, messes with my mind b/c some things u just dont say or do when u have a bf
- entertained the thought of possibly messing around with him (I don't know his bf so not my problem)
- ended up meeting his bf (his bf actually likes me. feels bad about wanting to do something but we never did anyway)
- co-worker has to go back to his home country
- co-worker returns breaks up with bf (nothing happens :()
- realized i have a thing for guys with j names
- discovered black party!
- a few more meaningless hookups
- alone and disenchanted with the idea of being in a relationship. I think I'll just take the sex for the time being :/
I just spent an hour reading through some of my previous entries. I guess they're not as bad as I thought other than the fact that I write like a 12 yr old girl out of junior high and that I'm still doing so right now. Anyway, it actually brought a few tears to my eyes strolling down memory lane while reading some of the happier times I've had. One thing for sure is that I've definitely changed quite a bit since then. It was really funny to read how much of a prude I used to be and how I afraid I was of acting or seeming too slutty and not wanting to drink so much. Seriously, it's like from Sandra Dee to Paris Hilton I have to say. I'm not saying I'm a huge skank, nowadays but I definitely have more "fun" when I go out.
I know I had something more substantial to vent about it and reflect on but I guess for now I just really wanted to make a bulleted list of why my lovelife is so full of suck and what I need to work on.
Wow, such a mess. I'm really such a cornball, reading these old entries and looking at all these dorky things I used to do(and sometimes still do). I'm tempted to lock all the old entries out of embarrasment. haha I can't and I shan't. Well maybe delete a few terrible ones. We'll see. I definitely need to do some cleaning up. It looks like I lost a few friends too. :( Obviously being away 5 years does that and some other reasons. Really sad to lose certain people. I really miss some of the comments. I'm rarely petty nor do I burn bridges, life happens and everyone is different. I'd say the bridge is still open if you ever want to return but I'm not gonna clutter anyone's list so consider myself removed.
Anyway, I just needed another place to write again. I'm not looking to write anything profound or enlightening. That's my other blog which I'm still working on atm. I just felt like I needed to come back to where I began and to a place I know certain people won't read or find. And so here I am 5 years later...
so here's a short-ish bulleted update since I last wrote
life in general
- partied hardy in college (best times of my life)
- switched circle of friends (break up between two close friends/ inevitably had to pick a side)
- graduated from Stony
- got job w/ a non-profit
- discovered the happiness of 'happy hour'
- 3 promotions woohoo despite having crashed my boss's car (woops)
- back in school for accounting
- work full time/school part time (less social life)
- hopefully move away from home soon
the love life
- crushed on my close friend
- he ended up dating another close friend :(
- bad break up I chose the other close friend(now my true blue bestest friend who I luv dearly)
- dated emo boy (I like blondes :))
- he broke up with me (distance issues over the summer :rolls eyes: he was just out in LI)
- emo boy sent me random txt in the summer that he wanted to see me ( i was still mad and so i ignored)
- crush on suitemate during summer
- this same suitemate is my suitemate during the fall and I find out he's gay!
- gay roomate(drunk) walks into my room while I was studying (scene out of a gay porn ensues)
- no strings attached w/ gay suitemate
- surprise surprise former bf(whatever we were) wants to get back w/ me in the fall
- we started talking again
- he ended up getting drunk at MY dorm party and blowing my suitemate in our bathroom
- super upset at this turn events (bitter about guys since)
- a few meaningless hookups
- crush on co-worker (he has a bf :()
- discovered craigslist O_o
- crush on another co-worker (he has a boyfriend too except he's away)
- start hanging out with this co-worker (a natural sort of chemistry develops)
- he flirts a lot with me, messes with my mind b/c some things u just dont say or do when u have a bf
- entertained the thought of possibly messing around with him (I don't know his bf so not my problem)
- ended up meeting his bf (his bf actually likes me. feels bad about wanting to do something but we never did anyway)
- co-worker has to go back to his home country
- co-worker returns breaks up with bf (nothing happens :()
- realized i have a thing for guys with j names
- discovered black party!
- a few more meaningless hookups
- alone and disenchanted with the idea of being in a relationship. I think I'll just take the sex for the time being :/
I just spent an hour reading through some of my previous entries. I guess they're not as bad as I thought other than the fact that I write like a 12 yr old girl out of junior high and that I'm still doing so right now. Anyway, it actually brought a few tears to my eyes strolling down memory lane while reading some of the happier times I've had. One thing for sure is that I've definitely changed quite a bit since then. It was really funny to read how much of a prude I used to be and how I afraid I was of acting or seeming too slutty and not wanting to drink so much. Seriously, it's like from Sandra Dee to Paris Hilton I have to say. I'm not saying I'm a huge skank, nowadays but I definitely have more "fun" when I go out.
I know I had something more substantial to vent about it and reflect on but I guess for now I just really wanted to make a bulleted list of why my lovelife is so full of suck and what I need to work on.