Comments | sparky_girl82: life's great mystery

sparky_girl82

life's great mystery

Feb 05, 2007 13:35

So yeah, life lately has been pretty crazy around here. Lately I have been really restless in my main job @ the insurance company. I'm not happy here, I mean my boss is really nice as is the girl I work with, but me in the office thing, typing at a computer for a subject I don't care about at all is getting to me. Lately I've been wanting to get ( Read more... )

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lisayaeger February 6 2007, 01:34:15 UTC

You definitely have to do what you love and be where you want to be. Even if it doesn't always pay the bills, it's a bigger pay-off in a different way. Your dad will understand and want you to do what makes you happy. These big life decisions are so hard, but in your heart, you probably already know what to do...

sparky_girl82 February 6 2007, 16:10:15 UTC

you know you're right. and you're right the decision is hard because I feel like if I moved, and something happened to my dad, I'd feel like it was on me because I didn't stay and help him and watch out for him...and I'm so scared of doing all this and failing....human insecurities I know, but scary.

lisayaeger February 6 2007, 16:38:56 UTC

It's so interesting to be having this conversation right now because I was in a leadership meeting yesterday morning where one of the college presidents said that fear of failure is so often what stops people from reaching beyond the comfort zone. Especially women, I think.

You are not responsible for your father, nor would he expect you to be, I imagine. Whether you are there or not, good and bad things will happen, and letting go of that false illusion of control is so hard, but completely necessary to become the person you need to be...

These pesky human emotions! Oh to be a Vulcan!

sparky_girl82 February 6 2007, 20:08:52 UTC

I'm sure my dad doesn't expect me to be responsible for taking care of him, but that's always been in my nature. I feel this innate need to take care of those around me, doing whatever I can. And yeah, the fear of failure is there, it's constant presence mocking me. Usually I'm pretty good about getting past it, but it's still there, for now.

I am taking another step towards trying to get my foot in the door with the label. I've decided in march to take a trip down to LA. Rocco's group is going to perform 2 nights at the House of Blues in Hollywood on a Monday-Tuesday, then in San Fran on wednesday. I already have a ticket to SF, but decided (since I know at least a few of the label people will be there) I'm gonna take a trip to LA that weekend, go to both concerts (take 2 days off) drive back late tuesday night, prolly go straight to work!!! Then go to SF to see them again on Wednesday....crazy ya?

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Downsides? shimatsuno February 8 2007, 12:40:02 UTC

Well, army guard sounds to me like "Iraq" ...but then again I don`t really have a clue what this is all about. But if there was the chance that - if I was in your shoes- I`d have to go down to Iraq I wouldn`t do it.
If that`s not the case then I don`t see a reason why you shouldn`t give it a shot.
...*mumble* hope you get what I`m trying to say...

Re: Downsides? sparky_girl82 February 12 2007, 22:45:41 UTC

Going to Iraq wouldn't really be that big of a deal to me, I dunno why. But I'm not really afraid to go. Plus side is I could go down to LA to go to school, and be non-deployable for the next 2 years. So still don't know exactly what I want to do, but I may give it a go.