not just a...Decison...

[sparksdontdie]

Am i making the right decision? Its an important one. i wont totally know until i see him. I feel like ive been in a horrible fog for weeks now and i cant get out of it. Is this how i get out of it? Should i ask billy to give us another try? One he could reject me, im hurt and move on. Two he could say yes, there is soooooo sooooo much at stake if he says yes. like all my freinds tell me i have to mean it and be ready and willing to give my all because it will cause him alot of stress, drama and pain if i just do what i did last time. I cant do that to him again. So i guess the decision will be made for sure when i see him. Then the next question is what will he decide?

Lately im obsessed with watching big love the tv show.

"I may not always love, but as long as there are stars above you..."