GIVE ME THE ANSWER
I'm telling billy tommorow that i cant talk to him anymore. i cant be his friend on facebook or myspace or any of it. He now has a girlfreind. i cant deal with that. ive been dealing with it really bady all day. i get physically sick sometimes. i text him tonight to tell him to call me tommrow after work when its a good time to talk. i dont know how much he'll care. i refuse to beleive he doesnt have any feelings left for me. i beleive he still has some strong feelings left for me. but some are buried in bitterness and a drive to move forward and not deal with my bullshit anymore. i absolutely dont blame him. im not ready fora boyfreind but it doesnt mean i dont have any feelings for him. i still do. im going back over some of my live journal posts to ppinpoint and think about some of the reasons besides not being ready, that i broke it off with him. i was in no mental place to have a boyfreind at the time. im hoping reading back will help. The only answer i have to this now is just to cut him out of my life for now. icant deal with him being with someone else and me being reminded of it.