morning
Saw billy yesterday. Didnt end up going to work. was so exhausted i just fell asleep with my work shirt on and no pants. Went up to see mary on saturday. We went out to a brewery for darrens birthday. That was over a month ago. It was fun, but my favorite part was still just sitting in her kitchen catching up on things and eating her moms awesome pizza rolls! ha. i soiund like im one of those 12 yr olds from the commericals. I ended up going home early. I was exhausted for some reason. mary suggested low iron. which is probably true. A freind weve known for about 3 yrs now failed to show up. It doesnt bother me much personally but it bothered me as far as how it relates to mary. Its like she thinks shes to cool or busy to hang out anymore. Lets see...hanging with people you dont get to see very often or..going to a party at ur platonic relationship boyfreinds house and sitting in a small house smoking pot on a couch and drinking while doing nothing? Which sounds better to me...hmmm. Whatever. Its of no business to me. Hanging out with justin today after he gets off work. He hasnt been calling me or messaging me much on myspace lately. I figured he had started dting someone so he didnt feel liketalking. but i honestly dont think thats wat it is anymore. i think cutting off some communication with me is how hes dealing with the breakup. Dealing with difficult things has its various stages and attitudes you go through. I asked him today why i havent heard from him lately, joking about not wantign to talk to me anymore. he said no that wasnt the reason. Yesterday i got so sad over us again. me billy kim and angi were sitting downstairs watching some dumb old weird videos on demand. I got bored and just started staring out the window, wondering how long it was going to take till i didnt feel bad about justin and stopped thinking about all the memroies we had. How do you erase thing memories. a year of love. How do you get over a year of love? Yes its only a year. Which in a lifetime doesnt seem as long. But it was just a few months ago. It was my year.