crazy
Lately ive been crazy about billy. he told me i was going to fall hard for him. well i dont know about that. but we talk all the time 20 times a day thrughout the day. i start work tonight. im nervous. i want to get it over with. tommorows the long ass tigers game. Then billys coming over to hang out that night. im excited. i hate that he lives so far away. well, 50 min atleast. its a pain in the ass. but its also a good thing actually. spending to muc time together isnt healthy. besides hes not my boyfreind. he went and hung iout with victoria last night. i flipped before that of course. im such a hippocrit. were in a very touch spot. were dating, not exclusevly but...get upset when the other hangs out with someone else. such as me with ro or him with victoria. but at the same time i love my freedom right now and cant have a boyfreind. im not over justin. whom still is the most precious person ill ever meet. i hope hes happy, i just want him to be happy so bad. i work all weekend. so ill see billy tommorow night and sunday night. then i dont know my work schedule for next week. dress fitting on thursday! blah. i decided enough is enough, i needed to stop stuffing my face. im doing the weight watchers things for real. YAY! jennys already lost a bunch on it. im proud of her. its not easy. i do love logging and counting my calories tho, thats always been something i never minded. alrigh im going to go. i wish i was hanging with billy. i might even let him kiss me that 1st time he tries. who knows lol. he tries a bunch. it used to annoy me, does still a lil bit but not as much as before. its kind of cute now. sometimes lol.