The need to destroy things creeps up on me every time...
So, ever since my father left without leaving any way for me to contact him unless he chooses to contact me first, I feel like I’ve been wandering about my usual routine in a very dazed way. It’s taking a toll on my already poor student habits, and working at the bookstore takes a lot of extra effort. But working at the restaurant is a thousand times easier, and I seem to be making consistently more money. It boggles the mind. I’m kinda annoyed that I have to work a dinner shift on Christmas Eve.
And I’ll teach you how to swim
if you turn the bad in me into good again.
Despite the crappy stuff happening, some good stuff’s been going down too. I’ve been spending a lot of time with Michelle lately, and she makes me feel calm. And she cancels out a lot of frustration that I have with other people [boys that don’t call me back, irritatingly fake people, etc]. She also makes me want to be a better person [as does Chris S., and others], so I'm trying to make changes in areas that needed changing. It's going along swimmingly so far.
Gogol Bordello last night with Michelle and Joshua Dane was sweet. I love them both. Thank you, Nichole! I love you too, even if you didn't know. All shall be explained.
And I say there's trouble
When everything is fine
The need to destroy things
Creeps up on me every time
I love Miami Ink. I want so many tattoos.
Recently, an opportunity arose for me. It involves me moving into Patrick’s apartment when he moves out. I don’t think he wants me to say too much about it yet, but it’s hard for me not to get my hopes up. It’s also hard thinking about him leaving.
I feel full of pent-up energy.
Just as love's silhouette appears
I close my eyes and disappear tonight.
ps the Amazing Christopher Tucker, your Chinese Zodiac sign is the rabbit.
And I’ll teach you how to swim
if you turn the bad in me into good again.
Despite the crappy stuff happening, some good stuff’s been going down too. I’ve been spending a lot of time with Michelle lately, and she makes me feel calm. And she cancels out a lot of frustration that I have with other people [boys that don’t call me back, irritatingly fake people, etc]. She also makes me want to be a better person [as does Chris S., and others], so I'm trying to make changes in areas that needed changing. It's going along swimmingly so far.
Gogol Bordello last night with Michelle and Joshua Dane was sweet. I love them both. Thank you, Nichole! I love you too, even if you didn't know. All shall be explained.
And I say there's trouble
When everything is fine
The need to destroy things
Creeps up on me every time
I love Miami Ink. I want so many tattoos.
Recently, an opportunity arose for me. It involves me moving into Patrick’s apartment when he moves out. I don’t think he wants me to say too much about it yet, but it’s hard for me not to get my hopes up. It’s also hard thinking about him leaving.
I feel full of pent-up energy.
Just as love's silhouette appears
I close my eyes and disappear tonight.
ps the Amazing Christopher Tucker, your Chinese Zodiac sign is the rabbit.