so much to do
ugh i have been so busy today.
ughghghghg....
and i still have to mess with rlh over my meal plan. FUN.
I have been thinking, too. About human love and about god love and how human love is really bad for me because i have trouble with boundaries.
The people who CAN make good boundaries really dont want anything to do with someone who is insane in this way. So I really can only get emotional people, i think. I mean, I like them, i want them, but they are very bad for me because they willingly let themselves become my emotional crutch.
I need to finish that stinking game. Stinking, stinking game. Argh. I have to go up the mountain. Go into zanarkand. Go through zanarkand. Do whatever in zanarkand. then who knows what.i guess i get the airship, finally.
Im really scared of meeting Kirston. Really. Hes a very grown up person. He is the kind of person who is very composed and logical and refined. He probably drinks wine and smokes cigarillos. And says 'perhaps' and 'ah' a lot. I bet he never plays any games or does anything stupid. Or gives hugs. I will feel like I am being judged poorly. Because I like to be playful and emotional. But I suppose I need to learn refinement, too. And composure. I wonder what this person can do for me. I also wonder what I can do for this person.
ughghghghg....
and i still have to mess with rlh over my meal plan. FUN.
I have been thinking, too. About human love and about god love and how human love is really bad for me because i have trouble with boundaries.
The people who CAN make good boundaries really dont want anything to do with someone who is insane in this way. So I really can only get emotional people, i think. I mean, I like them, i want them, but they are very bad for me because they willingly let themselves become my emotional crutch.
I need to finish that stinking game. Stinking, stinking game. Argh. I have to go up the mountain. Go into zanarkand. Go through zanarkand. Do whatever in zanarkand. then who knows what.i guess i get the airship, finally.
Im really scared of meeting Kirston. Really. Hes a very grown up person. He is the kind of person who is very composed and logical and refined. He probably drinks wine and smokes cigarillos. And says 'perhaps' and 'ah' a lot. I bet he never plays any games or does anything stupid. Or gives hugs. I will feel like I am being judged poorly. Because I like to be playful and emotional. But I suppose I need to learn refinement, too. And composure. I wonder what this person can do for me. I also wonder what I can do for this person.