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I think tomorrow's my last day of filming, really sucks.
i want to be okay....
hes got fucking bitches on his top 8, bastard.
i saw him today for lunch and just to chill. idk hes trying to replace me.... and im totally not.
i got drunk yesterday because i was so stressed. he thinks i want to fuck ian, okay i mean i was drunk yesterday... if i reallly wanted to... why didnt i? thats right, because im not trying to be a total bitch and yes i had a crush on ian but idk what it is anymore... its a friendship. hes leaving friday, i know i would get nothing out of it.
guys suck and they know they do.
im really okay, i just have to keep telling myself that.
i need to shower, give lily a bath, wash clothes, and sleep. im still really tired and i actually slept in today and went to bed at 1 last night... idk why im so tired.... emotionally too.
idk, idk... i just dont know anymore. thats all i say lately to everything.... im so confused.
♥
i want to be okay....
hes got fucking bitches on his top 8, bastard.
i saw him today for lunch and just to chill. idk hes trying to replace me.... and im totally not.
i got drunk yesterday because i was so stressed. he thinks i want to fuck ian, okay i mean i was drunk yesterday... if i reallly wanted to... why didnt i? thats right, because im not trying to be a total bitch and yes i had a crush on ian but idk what it is anymore... its a friendship. hes leaving friday, i know i would get nothing out of it.
guys suck and they know they do.
im really okay, i just have to keep telling myself that.
i need to shower, give lily a bath, wash clothes, and sleep. im still really tired and i actually slept in today and went to bed at 1 last night... idk why im so tired.... emotionally too.
idk, idk... i just dont know anymore. thats all i say lately to everything.... im so confused.
♥