ohhh politics
I could have decided otherwise. I know if I had voted the other way, he and I would still be talking. It was never the best of relationships/friendships. But given that it was the first time I had liked a guy a year and a half after being in a relationship, it was something. Actually I had never before liked someone actively. It used to be me saying yes to guys who wanted to be with me.
With him it was different. He was this perfect, ridiculously cute, crazy smart guy.
It was never great honestly. I doubt he ever really liked me. I know he was really attracted to me but it was just that. We were a terrible match because our egos always got in the way of our interactions. He was dominating and it always made me react. So from a rational perspective, there was nothing great we had going. Our personalities clashed, we had no time, correction, he had no time, there were professional conflicts.
But I still feel the same way. I know it is not real. I know it is not worth it. And I know it is never going to happen.
But its hard to forget how cute he is and how he is literally the only guy I have been nuts about.
With him it was different. He was this perfect, ridiculously cute, crazy smart guy.
It was never great honestly. I doubt he ever really liked me. I know he was really attracted to me but it was just that. We were a terrible match because our egos always got in the way of our interactions. He was dominating and it always made me react. So from a rational perspective, there was nothing great we had going. Our personalities clashed, we had no time, correction, he had no time, there were professional conflicts.
But I still feel the same way. I know it is not real. I know it is not worth it. And I know it is never going to happen.
But its hard to forget how cute he is and how he is literally the only guy I have been nuts about.