teddy grahams
i slept most of the day away once again. i know i haven't been keeping up with you, and for that i apoligize. i keep starting letters, and getting distracted.
in the past two weeks, i have made several new interesting contacts. i'm very excited in the fact, that i feel i always have someone to call, and somewhere to go if i should want to. i haven't been feeling very lonley---- except for in that romantic/sexual way, but that is totally taken care of {and well worth the wait}.
i've been playing tons of online scrabble. stan introduced me to that, and now i frequent it. you'd think my rating would be higher since i call myself a writer----> but i think i'm the lowest color possible. reguardless, it's really fun. i think that is where my former webpage redesigning time is going.
as i was saying though, i slept most of the day away. i got up at 1pm, {after 14 hours of sleep} to meet stan. he didn't wake up, so after half an hour, i called him up. all i can really remember talking about is pizza. we both wanted some really bad. {i'm so obsessive, that working with pizza everyday only makes me want it more when i am away from it.}
we also talked about valentines gifts for each other and puppies. lately he has said really great things that have made me wonder smiling through each day. things like "2003--->getting married" "coffee shop" "bar" "us" "i love you" "our kids" ect. we talked about how i should never own expensive jewlery because i would definantly loose it.
after the phone, we each ordered pizzas. i had a mushroom/greenpepper. mm. while eatting we both found ourselves online playing scrabble, so we had a game together. he beat me of course.
i was five minutes late to work. jeanie was working. i really like jeanie. cara was also working. i am confused by cara----> i have no idea if she likes me. it's weird for me when people give mixed signals. i want to know up front if a person is against me. i'd be cool with it then. it's when they talk to me, then say i am a bitch that puzzles me.
work was quick. the new boy, chris, gave me a ride home again. he's a great worker. he seems very smart. he is a friend of laura and justin. he wants to teach me to drive.
once i got home, my mom and me {and sister} went to the store to get sodas. oh, and we stopped to see wes, because i needed to tell him kathleen called me for us to hangout with them. wes said he was up for hangin with me, but was unsure about anything else.
i watched coyote ugly with my momma & sister after that. we had popcorn from kmart, and cinnimin teddy grahams. i love coytoe ugly.
then i met stan for a game of scrabble at ten. we didn't get to finish it. i called him up again, to say "goodnight" and "i love you". i love him. god i love him.
then i showered and called wes to go out. he picked me up at midnight. we drove to tom thumb where we got gas and i called brie's house to hook up with her and kathleen. there was no answer. i left a message. wes asked if i wanted a drink. i said "no" i wanted a drink. damn my fast reactions. he bought bazooka bubble gum. the new kind.
we decided to drive back to his place, where all of his friends were chillin playing wrestling. the wrestling stan loves to play. my first thought was "i love stan and i don't even sit through this for him". but then i thought of stan, and i really started to enjoy it. i picked up on it a lot. they were competing for a gold clinky belt they bought at super wallmart. joe had it when i left.
after a bit we went to dennys. me, wes, and eric. wes got cheese fries, eric got eggs, bacon, toast, and fries. he started talking about how he's thin cause he doesn't eat much. i started tuning him out about two seconds later. *good ears* i had black coffee, and a french fri.
we went back to wes's a little bit later. they played more wrestling. oh, one of wes's friends said i was cute {or something?} to wes. that made me feel a little self conscious. isn't that weird. complaments always make me feel so uncomfortable. he also said something about me being too quiet i think. i dunno, i didn't pay too much attention, because i am so in love with stan that no other guy could ever compete. ever. yah. {.....}
around 2:30am wes decided it was time to take me home. we got into one of our first "actual" conversations, so we drove past my house and talked for a while. it was pretty nice. wes and i hang alot, but never have big conversations. most of it was about girls in his life.
well, now i'm home. it's 3:30am.
some interesting people i've meet this week are--- Joe. Paul. Brie. Jane. Chris. I hope to write more about these new characters soon. i enjoy them very muchfully.
i'm in a really odd mood. teddy grahams have givin me a horrible taste in my mouth. i need some lipgloss. i think i'm gonna go play scrabble.
in the past two weeks, i have made several new interesting contacts. i'm very excited in the fact, that i feel i always have someone to call, and somewhere to go if i should want to. i haven't been feeling very lonley---- except for in that romantic/sexual way, but that is totally taken care of {and well worth the wait}.
i've been playing tons of online scrabble. stan introduced me to that, and now i frequent it. you'd think my rating would be higher since i call myself a writer----> but i think i'm the lowest color possible. reguardless, it's really fun. i think that is where my former webpage redesigning time is going.
as i was saying though, i slept most of the day away. i got up at 1pm, {after 14 hours of sleep} to meet stan. he didn't wake up, so after half an hour, i called him up. all i can really remember talking about is pizza. we both wanted some really bad. {i'm so obsessive, that working with pizza everyday only makes me want it more when i am away from it.}
we also talked about valentines gifts for each other and puppies. lately he has said really great things that have made me wonder smiling through each day. things like "2003--->getting married" "coffee shop" "bar" "us" "i love you" "our kids" ect. we talked about how i should never own expensive jewlery because i would definantly loose it.
after the phone, we each ordered pizzas. i had a mushroom/greenpepper. mm. while eatting we both found ourselves online playing scrabble, so we had a game together. he beat me of course.
i was five minutes late to work. jeanie was working. i really like jeanie. cara was also working. i am confused by cara----> i have no idea if she likes me. it's weird for me when people give mixed signals. i want to know up front if a person is against me. i'd be cool with it then. it's when they talk to me, then say i am a bitch that puzzles me.
work was quick. the new boy, chris, gave me a ride home again. he's a great worker. he seems very smart. he is a friend of laura and justin. he wants to teach me to drive.
once i got home, my mom and me {and sister} went to the store to get sodas. oh, and we stopped to see wes, because i needed to tell him kathleen called me for us to hangout with them. wes said he was up for hangin with me, but was unsure about anything else.
i watched coyote ugly with my momma & sister after that. we had popcorn from kmart, and cinnimin teddy grahams. i love coytoe ugly.
then i met stan for a game of scrabble at ten. we didn't get to finish it. i called him up again, to say "goodnight" and "i love you". i love him. god i love him.
then i showered and called wes to go out. he picked me up at midnight. we drove to tom thumb where we got gas and i called brie's house to hook up with her and kathleen. there was no answer. i left a message. wes asked if i wanted a drink. i said "no" i wanted a drink. damn my fast reactions. he bought bazooka bubble gum. the new kind.
we decided to drive back to his place, where all of his friends were chillin playing wrestling. the wrestling stan loves to play. my first thought was "i love stan and i don't even sit through this for him". but then i thought of stan, and i really started to enjoy it. i picked up on it a lot. they were competing for a gold clinky belt they bought at super wallmart. joe had it when i left.
after a bit we went to dennys. me, wes, and eric. wes got cheese fries, eric got eggs, bacon, toast, and fries. he started talking about how he's thin cause he doesn't eat much. i started tuning him out about two seconds later. *good ears* i had black coffee, and a french fri.
we went back to wes's a little bit later. they played more wrestling. oh, one of wes's friends said i was cute {or something?} to wes. that made me feel a little self conscious. isn't that weird. complaments always make me feel so uncomfortable. he also said something about me being too quiet i think. i dunno, i didn't pay too much attention, because i am so in love with stan that no other guy could ever compete. ever. yah. {.....}
around 2:30am wes decided it was time to take me home. we got into one of our first "actual" conversations, so we drove past my house and talked for a while. it was pretty nice. wes and i hang alot, but never have big conversations. most of it was about girls in his life.
well, now i'm home. it's 3:30am.
some interesting people i've meet this week are--- Joe. Paul. Brie. Jane. Chris. I hope to write more about these new characters soon. i enjoy them very muchfully.
i'm in a really odd mood. teddy grahams have givin me a horrible taste in my mouth. i need some lipgloss. i think i'm gonna go play scrabble.