sometimes it feels like my dreams are too high for me to reach
I don't feel like I'm good enough..
this is what I want to accomplish:
-Symphony Orchestra, maybe Colorado, Chicago, Europe?
- Mission Trip to Africa
-Adopt a chinese kid
-Have a successful marriage with a man I truly love and who truly loves me
-Play piano for a church, or something. piano teacher?
-flute teacher
-own my own music store/studio/music therapy
it's going to take a lot of work, i know, and i'm willing to do that, but it just seems like no matter what I do I won't be good enough. I was playing my piano today and its hard. it's definitely not easy. part of me just wants to give up, but I love music to much.
but im so so so sic of feeling so inferior to my brother Mark in like, every area of life.
Popularity, talent, intelligence, he's better at all of them
he even gets away with more shit at home with out parents and stuff
im so done feeling this way about him. ugh
and i chose the same college as him
what did i get myself into?!!
this is what I want to accomplish:
-Symphony Orchestra, maybe Colorado, Chicago, Europe?
- Mission Trip to Africa
-Adopt a chinese kid
-Have a successful marriage with a man I truly love and who truly loves me
-Play piano for a church, or something. piano teacher?
-flute teacher
-own my own music store/studio/music therapy
it's going to take a lot of work, i know, and i'm willing to do that, but it just seems like no matter what I do I won't be good enough. I was playing my piano today and its hard. it's definitely not easy. part of me just wants to give up, but I love music to much.
but im so so so sic of feeling so inferior to my brother Mark in like, every area of life.
Popularity, talent, intelligence, he's better at all of them
he even gets away with more shit at home with out parents and stuff
im so done feeling this way about him. ugh
and i chose the same college as him
what did i get myself into?!!