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i miss sparklesisemo
you know how your friends that love you
they tell you ridiculous things
like
"you're so much better than him"
"he doesn't deserve you"
"he's a jerk and i want to tear his face off"
well
you're supposed to believe them
and you're supposed to be strong and independent
and totally give that blockhead a whooping
well
i did
at first it was so liberating
but now..
i feel so terrible
i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry
why am i such a softy?
why can't i just see you as something worthless
and make you feel terrible
and just never look back?
isn't that what i'm supposed to do?
because that's what they said to do
and friends are better than boys
i feel like shi
t
i suppose i understand if we never talk again
i don't think i would talk to me either
but see?
why should i have sympathy for you?
this is so dumb!
you aren't capable of deep thought
that's what they tell me
i trust them
i've known them longer
why do i have to continue to believe you?
you aren't telling the truth
you like friends with benefits
you like stupid things like friends with benefits
you like lying
you like using people
you like to say stupid things
and why
just tell me why
can't i accept that fact?
i think
that maybe
a way to prove all of that to me
is if you decided after everything you said
about me being a wonderful person
and how much you love talking to me
that you just disowned me
and decided to never talk to me or say anything nice to me again
that would solidify it
i could move on
and realize that you were bad news and i was just naive
i hope you don't do that
i don't think you will
but what do i know
this will all blow over in a few days
i'll be fine
i'm sure i'll have forgotten about you
you don't understand how much i want to believe you
how much i want to think that you're really okay
and you aren't going to hurt me
and you really aren't like that
but
its your word against hers
think about it
i've talked to you in person what?
two times?
i don't know how to read you
it's impossible to read someone over the internet
and what
oh gosh
i've known her basically my whole life
jeez
sorry
what do you expect?
you talk pretty
i bought it for a while
but
i have to banish the romantic thoughts and go for what's realistic
ridiculous
you know how your friends that love you
they tell you ridiculous things
like
"you're so much better than him"
"he doesn't deserve you"
"he's a jerk and i want to tear his face off"
well
you're supposed to believe them
and you're supposed to be strong and independent
and totally give that blockhead a whooping
well
i did
at first it was so liberating
but now..
i feel so terrible
i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry
why am i such a softy?
why can't i just see you as something worthless
and make you feel terrible
and just never look back?
isn't that what i'm supposed to do?
because that's what they said to do
and friends are better than boys
i feel like shi
t
i suppose i understand if we never talk again
i don't think i would talk to me either
but see?
why should i have sympathy for you?
this is so dumb!
you aren't capable of deep thought
that's what they tell me
i trust them
i've known them longer
why do i have to continue to believe you?
you aren't telling the truth
you like friends with benefits
you like stupid things like friends with benefits
you like lying
you like using people
you like to say stupid things
and why
just tell me why
can't i accept that fact?
i think
that maybe
a way to prove all of that to me
is if you decided after everything you said
about me being a wonderful person
and how much you love talking to me
that you just disowned me
and decided to never talk to me or say anything nice to me again
that would solidify it
i could move on
and realize that you were bad news and i was just naive
i hope you don't do that
i don't think you will
but what do i know
this will all blow over in a few days
i'll be fine
i'm sure i'll have forgotten about you
you don't understand how much i want to believe you
how much i want to think that you're really okay
and you aren't going to hurt me
and you really aren't like that
but
its your word against hers
think about it
i've talked to you in person what?
two times?
i don't know how to read you
it's impossible to read someone over the internet
and what
oh gosh
i've known her basically my whole life
jeez
sorry
what do you expect?
you talk pretty
i bought it for a while
but
i have to banish the romantic thoughts and go for what's realistic
ridiculous