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i just had the most terrifying dream of my life.
i remember two things from it.. one was jeff lynch, dave fillebrown, and two other boys in a car let me cross in front of them because it was me.
and the other was me being in my shower, my entire body covered in blood and half my head completely burnt and the same areas of my hair gone because this guy had tried to kill me. (he killed a bunch of people before me.. one girl ended up ripping all her own hair out listening to him kill people from the other room and ended up shooting herself in the mouth.) anyway.. somehow i got away and here i am in my shower trying to wash all the blood off but its staining my tub and walls and just proceeding to tweak me out even more. and by the end of the dream im flipping on my mother about it all.
*shudders*
but yeah.. moving on.
today i got a new busy book. so its back to bank logs, to do lists, doodles, notes, and an in general balance.
i caught up on what paperwork i could at my store, and made a few phone calls to try to fix my scheduling issues to make my future in watertown less stressful. (i NEED someone 18+ that can open, whos totally down with only one day a week. hours will increase come november or loss.)
i need to bleach my hair, clean and paint my room, give away most of my clothes (and toys... :() and try to get some order over all my crap.
it would probably be a good idea to cut down on energy drinks and pills and learn to function on my own again. last year i went an entire week without caffiene. sadly with the selection of beverages in my mall, and my dreadfully low will power, i dont see that happening again any time soon. at the very least, no more pills.
the weather is finally starting to permit me to wear my ultimate favorite kind of outfits. i dont think i have ever been so excited for knee highs and zip up hoodies in my entire life.
my car is healthy again. now all it needs is a radio.
im getting back into old habits that used to make me smile.
im determined to meet new people.. or at least spend more time with awesome ones i dont see nearly enough.
im going to take pictures sober, and still love them.
i WILL shoot my princess set by the end of this month.
im going to see a guy about my new tattoo on thursday.
........
the point is:
hi, my name is rocket. i live here.
and im going to be ok.
im ALWAYS ok.
i am way to cute not to be. :)
i remember two things from it.. one was jeff lynch, dave fillebrown, and two other boys in a car let me cross in front of them because it was me.
and the other was me being in my shower, my entire body covered in blood and half my head completely burnt and the same areas of my hair gone because this guy had tried to kill me. (he killed a bunch of people before me.. one girl ended up ripping all her own hair out listening to him kill people from the other room and ended up shooting herself in the mouth.) anyway.. somehow i got away and here i am in my shower trying to wash all the blood off but its staining my tub and walls and just proceeding to tweak me out even more. and by the end of the dream im flipping on my mother about it all.
*shudders*
but yeah.. moving on.
today i got a new busy book. so its back to bank logs, to do lists, doodles, notes, and an in general balance.
i caught up on what paperwork i could at my store, and made a few phone calls to try to fix my scheduling issues to make my future in watertown less stressful. (i NEED someone 18+ that can open, whos totally down with only one day a week. hours will increase come november or loss.)
i need to bleach my hair, clean and paint my room, give away most of my clothes (and toys... :() and try to get some order over all my crap.
it would probably be a good idea to cut down on energy drinks and pills and learn to function on my own again. last year i went an entire week without caffiene. sadly with the selection of beverages in my mall, and my dreadfully low will power, i dont see that happening again any time soon. at the very least, no more pills.
the weather is finally starting to permit me to wear my ultimate favorite kind of outfits. i dont think i have ever been so excited for knee highs and zip up hoodies in my entire life.
my car is healthy again. now all it needs is a radio.
im getting back into old habits that used to make me smile.
im determined to meet new people.. or at least spend more time with awesome ones i dont see nearly enough.
im going to take pictures sober, and still love them.
i WILL shoot my princess set by the end of this month.
im going to see a guy about my new tattoo on thursday.
........
the point is:
hi, my name is rocket. i live here.
and im going to be ok.
im ALWAYS ok.
i am way to cute not to be. :)