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FUCK! I SUCK!
but you know what, i dont really suck at all. i bust my ass to make others happy..and go by the right way. you know i believe in karma but its thats doing me no good right now. but thats fine.
i finally just gave up with trying to make everything okay. i obviously was not being accepted for anything i had to offer or any intentions of making shit work. and you can only do so much untill you blow up after a slllooowww build-up of being upset and mad.
i try not to hold grudges..because I KNOW thats the wrong thing to do. shit happens, shit changes and relationships either die or live on. when they die, its a lot easier to cope because, its over, peace, i hope i never see you. but when they live on its like....uhhhh i hate you so much but i just like you and i wish you would just..stop. stop what? i dont know but youre driving me kinda crazy. and i dont mean crazy like...im a crazy bitch. just thinking about what how shit SHOULD be and how now it is fucked up.
i dont wanna boyfriend, i dont want like a fucking soul mate. i just wanna cool ass dude that can get the fuck down with how i am and what i do. i honestly, didnt think it would be that hard. everything that i want is untouchable and off limits. but honestly, i dont care. if this is what it then alright hah, im not missing out. the only thing im missing out on is a big dick.
fuck this. get outta my head.
but you know what, i dont really suck at all. i bust my ass to make others happy..and go by the right way. you know i believe in karma but its thats doing me no good right now. but thats fine.
i finally just gave up with trying to make everything okay. i obviously was not being accepted for anything i had to offer or any intentions of making shit work. and you can only do so much untill you blow up after a slllooowww build-up of being upset and mad.
i try not to hold grudges..because I KNOW thats the wrong thing to do. shit happens, shit changes and relationships either die or live on. when they die, its a lot easier to cope because, its over, peace, i hope i never see you. but when they live on its like....uhhhh i hate you so much but i just like you and i wish you would just..stop. stop what? i dont know but youre driving me kinda crazy. and i dont mean crazy like...im a crazy bitch. just thinking about what how shit SHOULD be and how now it is fucked up.
i dont wanna boyfriend, i dont want like a fucking soul mate. i just wanna cool ass dude that can get the fuck down with how i am and what i do. i honestly, didnt think it would be that hard. everything that i want is untouchable and off limits. but honestly, i dont care. if this is what it then alright hah, im not missing out. the only thing im missing out on is a big dick.
fuck this. get outta my head.