I Just Wanna Cry In Front of You....
My weekend was fun in an intersting sort of way. I actually had Saturday night off so it was girls night out!!! It started with a lovely Mexican dinner & Margaritas with Michelle, Jess, & Mandy. THen got all kinds of cute and went down to Archie's to meet up with Jess, Jennifer, lil Ms Christina (who I haven't see in about 2 months), and Michelle&Mandy. We did some shots and drinks at Archie's. Me & Jen did our own rendition of "My Humps". It was quite BAD! ;) Then we were off to Chic N Bones where danced around like crazy.
Me & Jen got a ride back to her apartment from Zach's girlfriends brother. RANDOM. I felt bad for him because I know what it's like to pick up drunks. NO FUN. Surprisingly I was truly not that drunk. Trust me I was drunk but for as much I had I spaced it really well. Me & Jen stayed up til a lil after 4 chatting & pigging out. I woke up today and we didn't have a ride to Archie's to get our cars. So around 3pm we finally called a cab and we did the walk of shame to the bar. We sat and ate our first meal of the day at Archie's. I didn't end up going home til after 6.
Me & Adam are fighting again. It's so hard for me to deal with this because it feels like the wall between is getting higher everyday. And it's not me anymore. It's him. Yes yes I know he's busy (he bashes that into my head). I know I need to be more understanding and such. I just wish he quit trying to be all logical and reasonable and just FEEL something. Thats what pissed me off. I waited til he called at 1am even though I have to work in the morning for a 2 minute conversation where he talked the whole time and NOTHING was even remotely touched on. *SIGH* Why can't I just let go? Why do I still have all of these feelings? Why do I still care so much? I quit feeling that he cared for me a long time ago. And I realized how much I cared too late. Oh well...I haven't had a good crying sessions in a while.
So, I've decided I'm not coming to Illinois. I was going to come for Opus but turns out it's in April and I'm already taking off for Chicago. Then I was going to come the week after WVU's spring break in March and see all of my peeps and maybe see Adam's show but for MANY reasons (including some of the things in the last paragraph) I'm probably going to bow out of the trip. I wish I could come but as always life doesn't work out the way you want it too.
That being said I purchased my plane ticket for Cali tonight. $358. ehhhh...oh well...all I have left is to get the ferry stuff taken care of and I'm HOME FREE!!!!
I'm going to the doctor on Thursday FINALLY....
I'm determined to get to do some kind of physical activity more than 3 days this week!!!
I HATE my schedule this week.
I miss Erin. :(
I finally talked to Mel! Now if only i could sit and chat with Tessa, Kate, & Pank.
I still haven't started my solo.
And I think the Pilates job is a NO GO. :(
Wow...I'm really not happy with my life.
But I'm having a good time at the moment.
I'm so sorry God.
Someday I'll fly away from everyone and everything.
No more ramblings...now I'm climbing back into bed to make the sleep journey yet again....maybe I shouldn't sleep with my phone against me praying he'll call anymore....
Me & Jen got a ride back to her apartment from Zach's girlfriends brother. RANDOM. I felt bad for him because I know what it's like to pick up drunks. NO FUN. Surprisingly I was truly not that drunk. Trust me I was drunk but for as much I had I spaced it really well. Me & Jen stayed up til a lil after 4 chatting & pigging out. I woke up today and we didn't have a ride to Archie's to get our cars. So around 3pm we finally called a cab and we did the walk of shame to the bar. We sat and ate our first meal of the day at Archie's. I didn't end up going home til after 6.
Me & Adam are fighting again. It's so hard for me to deal with this because it feels like the wall between is getting higher everyday. And it's not me anymore. It's him. Yes yes I know he's busy (he bashes that into my head). I know I need to be more understanding and such. I just wish he quit trying to be all logical and reasonable and just FEEL something. Thats what pissed me off. I waited til he called at 1am even though I have to work in the morning for a 2 minute conversation where he talked the whole time and NOTHING was even remotely touched on. *SIGH* Why can't I just let go? Why do I still have all of these feelings? Why do I still care so much? I quit feeling that he cared for me a long time ago. And I realized how much I cared too late. Oh well...I haven't had a good crying sessions in a while.
So, I've decided I'm not coming to Illinois. I was going to come for Opus but turns out it's in April and I'm already taking off for Chicago. Then I was going to come the week after WVU's spring break in March and see all of my peeps and maybe see Adam's show but for MANY reasons (including some of the things in the last paragraph) I'm probably going to bow out of the trip. I wish I could come but as always life doesn't work out the way you want it too.
That being said I purchased my plane ticket for Cali tonight. $358. ehhhh...oh well...all I have left is to get the ferry stuff taken care of and I'm HOME FREE!!!!
I'm going to the doctor on Thursday FINALLY....
I'm determined to get to do some kind of physical activity more than 3 days this week!!!
I HATE my schedule this week.
I miss Erin. :(
I finally talked to Mel! Now if only i could sit and chat with Tessa, Kate, & Pank.
I still haven't started my solo.
And I think the Pilates job is a NO GO. :(
Wow...I'm really not happy with my life.
But I'm having a good time at the moment.
I'm so sorry God.
Someday I'll fly away from everyone and everything.
No more ramblings...now I'm climbing back into bed to make the sleep journey yet again....maybe I shouldn't sleep with my phone against me praying he'll call anymore....