Zydone.
So here I am, about to confess to you all about what has been going on in my life. I am rather drugged right now, so I apologise if my logic is muddled. Here goes: You all know I like John, and now thanks to various circumstances, he is also aware of this. Fortunately, his finding this out has nothing to do with a drug-induced confession. However, it is partially the reason that I am currently drugged into a peaceful and warm oblivion. It is unclear whether there is hope for a realtionship between us that supercedes the bounds of simple friendship--if such a thing exists. That is a question that will remain, I believe, unanswered for a long time. Which I am by and large okay with. John has admitted that he is attracted to me. It is also clear that at this point he is in no way ready for a relationship--which I both agree with and accept. There has been a lot of drama surrounding this. But ultimately, I believe I have solved much of it by talking to the related people. This entry was going to be a lot longer, and a lot more detailed, but, I just don't feel like delving into it. Things are on ice, no one knows what the future holds, I still have some shadowy hope, and I am, for the first time in weeks, at peace. And my schoolwork is finally almost under control. Granted, I will really need to do some serious work for my Wednesday Chemistry test. But, I did get a 100% on my first sociology test, which kicks ass. So I think if I work just a little harder, I will really have everything under control again. And that is a really, really good feeling. Alissa, thank you so much for the drugs. I needed them to get things sorted out... they put me just far enough outside myself to see the big picture. And everyone else, I just love you all for all my little reasons. Have I mentioned that drugs make me love lots of things?