Apathy.
What. If. The. Medicine. Isn't. Working.
I'm back to thinking about it again. I am so scared. And things with Kevin are just really intense right now, and I am just feeding off his fears. I'm back to wearing the rubber-band again. And I just have to keep filling my head with noise to drown it out. What if I am slowly losing my mind? I feel so far away from everything. I'm in love, but I'm losing touch. I just need for things to be stable and boring and calm. I just need to be held, and rocked, and told it will all be alright. It will, won't it?
I'm back to thinking about it again. I am so scared. And things with Kevin are just really intense right now, and I am just feeding off his fears. I'm back to wearing the rubber-band again. And I just have to keep filling my head with noise to drown it out. What if I am slowly losing my mind? I feel so far away from everything. I'm in love, but I'm losing touch. I just need for things to be stable and boring and calm. I just need to be held, and rocked, and told it will all be alright. It will, won't it?