Reality :) Don't ya just love it
I guess you could say that reality has set in. I'm starting to realize that summer is winding down and coming to and end and that everyone has to say their goodbyes here soon. Angela, Kacey and Rachel all leave on the 20th, Lindsey and Pauly leave on the 16th, and Shawn and Sean leave on thurs. It's kind of surreal I guess you could say. But I also realized today that I am going to be okay now. I know that I will still see everybody atleast once a month and that we will all stay in touch through the internet. Our friendships will still last.
I also realized today that I'm going to be okay without the boy if we don't get back together. I am really going to be okay, and I'm okay with being okay. If you're reading this and didn't understand that, sorry! :)I'm going to try and stop crying over him every night when I go out, and try not to think about him and I as much. I don't want to give up caring or hope on the chance that we might get together or anything, but if things don't change in about a week, I am going to have to. I can't keep putting myself through this heartbreak every day and night. But I talked to him this morning when he called me, and I let him know how I was feeling about certain issues, and then I asked him 2 questions that I really needed answers to. And I got the answers that I needed and everything that I needed to know! So if we get back together, we are going to start ALLL OVER from the beginning, clean slate. And if we don't, we are going to be just good friends and nothing more. Either way, in my eyes now, looking on the bright side, its a win win situation. No matter what I am going to get a life long friend out of it. :)Or atleast he will be a life long friend to me always.
I also realized today that I'm going to be okay without the boy if we don't get back together. I am really going to be okay, and I'm okay with being okay. If you're reading this and didn't understand that, sorry! :)I'm going to try and stop crying over him every night when I go out, and try not to think about him and I as much. I don't want to give up caring or hope on the chance that we might get together or anything, but if things don't change in about a week, I am going to have to. I can't keep putting myself through this heartbreak every day and night. But I talked to him this morning when he called me, and I let him know how I was feeling about certain issues, and then I asked him 2 questions that I really needed answers to. And I got the answers that I needed and everything that I needed to know! So if we get back together, we are going to start ALLL OVER from the beginning, clean slate. And if we don't, we are going to be just good friends and nothing more. Either way, in my eyes now, looking on the bright side, its a win win situation. No matter what I am going to get a life long friend out of it. :)Or atleast he will be a life long friend to me always.