I just don't understand...
So there's this boy, and most of you know who he is. I don't understand him at all. He tells me things and then doesn't do them. I don't understand why I do this to myself. Why I put myself through this pain and misery when I know exactly what is going to happen, I get up hopes up and he lets them down. I don't see why I just can't let him go. I don't see how or why I got so attached so quickly. Was it because he was so much of a better guy than jeff, or just because he was someone new. He says he still wants to hang out and talk and everything, but whenever I try to do so, it seems as if he is avoiding it. Like today, he calls me and says I will call you back before I go to work, and maybe I will stop by if I have time. Well guess what.... NEVER HAPPENED. Like someone said, he thinks he has me so wrapped around his finger and that's why he is doing it. Well things are going to change. I am going to stand up for myself. If he says he's going to call me, then I will let him call me, not me call him. If he wants to hang out with me, he will have to ask me, not me ask him. I don't deserve to be treated like this, when all I have done for him is good things. I've showed him nothing but love and care, bought him everything he has asked for and more, and have always been there for him. I don't deserve to be treated the way I have. I know that he wouldn't like it if I purposely silenced his phone calls all day long or if I ignored him all day long. Maybe he just needs a taste of his own medicine. However, I am still head over heels for the guy, and can't get over him. But maybe that is because I don't want to yet. I just don't know because I don't understand why we aren't together when we both want to be with each other.